Talking To The Moon

I know you're somewhere out there

Somewhere far away

I want you back

I want you back

My neighbours think

I'm crazy

But they don't understand

You're all I have

You're all I have

I'm feeling like

I'm famous

The talk of the town

They say

I've gone mad

I've gone mad

But they don't know

what I know

Cause when the sun goes down

someone's talking back

They're talking back

At night when the stars

light up my room

I sit by myself

Talking to the moon.

trying to get to You

In hopes you're on

the other side

Talking to me too.

Or am I a fool

who sits alone

Talking to the moon?

Do you ever hear me calling

'Cause every night

I'm talking to the moon

Still trying to get to you

In hopes you're on

the other side

Talking to me too

Or am I a fool

who sits alone

Talking to the moon?

I know you're somewhere out there

Somewhere far away

Chicago never fail to bring memories back. The last time I was here I still remember that it was autumn. I was broken that time. But it has reminds me so much of how I got through slowly a step at a time. Until now, I still miss him very much. But after so long, I can't deny I evolved. I still love James. But in a different way. I guess that living in a condition that non human like and abusing with drugs for 19 months, I owed myself a better life. Even all of us move on. But for someone who loved you or whatever it is, I owed it to him if I put myself in that way. I know it is really hard at first. But slowly it will fade slowly. 

In many ways, my broken angel is still broken. I am not in position to say anything as no one will know how you feel ever. But I will still stand here for you if you needed. Without judgement. But just patiently be there as a good friend and family. There are improvements I believe. I do see small changes from time to time. But still miss that cheerful you. Take your time. No one is rushing you out. But whenever you need a hand to held you, you know where to go. 

And tomorrow is Christmas eve, I know it would be hard for you. I have gone through that way too last year. Somehow I am not even qualified to console you. But just remember, you will never be alone. And its Christmas, I have given all to change for your well being and happiness always. 

After Chicago, I will be heading to a warmer place. Miami. I am doing all I can to arm the homeless. I wish the world Happy Christmas everyone~ Share love~ Give love~ Feel love~ And Be Loved~