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Wednesday, April 22, 2015

Ended Up Being About Taylor Swift

Do you ever listen to a sad song, and become emotional not because you relate to the words on your side, but because you feel like it could be the words and feelings of the other?

Sometimes I hear the emotions in the lyrics and melody, and I think… could I have caused them to feel this way? Is this “their” song? Was this what they went through, or are going through? And the thought of that is actually what makes me sad, the notion that I inflicted this, this sadness, anger, insecurity. Not that the words and message of the song reflect my feelings. (I do not take pride in this at all, it’s not a good thing. Just wondering if others feel the same)

Perhaps this is the reason why I enjoy Taylor Swift’s songs so much. (Yes, I just said Taylor Swift as my example). I’m obviously not a teenage (excuse me, 22-oo-OO-OO) blonde girl, but sometimes her songs give me a sense of what a girl in my past may have thought because of me. And it’s an intense feeling, of guilt, or regret. And isn’t that what music is supposed to do? Make you feel? So yes, I’m a fan of Taylor Swift.

Here’s one of her more recent ones that when it came out made me think … “I wonder if I was on the wrong end of this song in her life?”



Sucha good song. (btw, I would never have a problem with any girl wearing high heels. Who would??)

Accumulated

Remember when “I like you” was enough? “I like you” was the end all goal. “I like you” was the prize. Remember when “I like you” was enough?

I can pull out the journal and go to the specific page and entry when I first heard those words from the girl that I also liked. For the first time, it was mutual. For the first time, of all the people that I could “like”, she “liked” me back. At the time, I innocently called it a “phenomenon” of some sort, that two people could match this way in this world. “I like you” was enough. She became my first girlfriend. She became my first love.

Remember when “I love you” was enough? “I love you” was the epitome, all you needed. “I love you” was when you found the one. Remember when “I love you” was enough?

But that was before ex-boyfriends, before ex-girlfriends. Before her disapproving parents. Before his parents you couldn’t stand. This was before that little bad habit that grew into the most annoying thing ever. Before that little mole became all you saw. Before being cheated on by someone you trusted your life with. Before letting your thoughts stray to someone else. This was before pretending to like baseball. Before wishing he’d enjoy dancing, and sitting through musicals just to make her happy. “I love you” was enough before other “I love you’s”. “I love you” was enough before you realized “I thought I loved you.” It was enough before long distance meant seeing each other once a month. Before moving to New York because this was her only chance, or him taking the job in Auckland. Before you realized you were never going to convert. This was before he was ready for kids and I wasn’t; and even before she wanted to get married and I still missed being a bachelor. It was before we were hurt so deeply, before we hurt others so selfishly. It was enough, until it you found out, it wasn’t.

Remember when “I like you” was enough?

Friday, April 17, 2015

New Boeing 787 In Unique Star Wars Livery

New Boeing 787 has unique Star Wars livery
Star Wars On ANA 787
... specifically, painted to pay homage to the series' droid R2-D2. Created by Japan's All Nippon Airways to mark December's release of the new Star Wars: The Force Awakens, the eye-catching Boeing 787 will fly across a number of ANA's international routes later this year.

The airline says that 'Project R2-D2' is part of a five-year licensing agreement with Star Wars owner Disney that “will connect Japan to the global market.”

With several new Star Wars films underway, from continuations to the original series to stand-alone movies and even a rumoured TV series (think Game of Thrones with less flesh and more Force), certainly hope that means plenty more Dreamliners dressed in different Star Wars livery. For more of this avgeek and sci-fi geek mashup, visit ANA's dedicated microsite

Tuesday, April 14, 2015

Some Things




Love is friendship that has caught fire. It is quiet understanding, mutual confidence, sharing and forgiving. It is loyalty through good and bad times. It settles for less than perfection and makes allowances for human weaknesses.

- Ann Landers

You - Part 007 : April 15th 2015

Take my hand, take my whole life too
For I can't help falling in love with you

The first song I've ever send it to you before it was released worldwide. A classic beauty that was covered. An arrangement that I did thinking about us. Sometimes, I don't know if our stars are just aligned or just some things are just meant to be.

It was simple. There was nothing else in the world that could matter. The quiet understanding, the acceptance, and also the forgiving. There are many circumstances I couldn't believe I would be able to look pass and let it go. But when things went wrong, all I could think of is I am thankful that the honesty we shared are strong. Today mark a special day for the both of us. Something that I never thought was possible.

The past 3 weeks has been crazy for either of us. It reminded me when things were crazy last year for us. You would write a lot just to distract me. And lemme get lost in it. Lost myself and I am no where to be found.

I find myself being able to let go. I didn't let myself drowned in a place where only I could reach. No more bleeding, no more hiding.

When there are times I felt hurt, but the worst part is there is no one to blame. There were times I feel that why choosing a life that held on to something that is just merely an idea. Things were grey and I would let myself feel every single cut. But love changes you. It lessen the burden, it trusted you with something that no words could ever describe. And you let it unwrap you and breathe you in.

I just wanted to be thankful, I just wanted to hold on to what I am breathing in. You've been there as a friend. Your weakness is just a mere part of life and the course of growing up. I am not settling for the less perfect, as all the imperfection reflects that I am in love with a human being. They say when you fell in love, your common sense is on holiday. You were always that someone to try for, and that someone whose arms will hold you tight enough to be the reason to breathe.

I don't love you because I needed you. I need you because I love you. We are sure the worst, and we are sure the best. 

Monday, April 13, 2015

New Armani Amenity Kits in Qatar Airways

Qatar Airways’ business and first class passengers can now take home a stylish new Giorgio Armani amenity kit, packed with nifty goodies for your flight and bathroom back at home.

In business class the ladies score with an Armani Si fragrance and a perfumed body lotion, while you’ll find a near-identical amenity kit in first class but with eye makeup remover:

It’s a similar deal for the gents – business class passengers receive an Acqua di Gio fragrance and after shave balm, joined by an Armani Men ‘master lotion’ in First:

Not forgotten are the basics such as eyeshades, socks, earplugs and lip balm, with female passengers also picking up a sturdy hairbrush:

On overnight flights, first class flyers will also now receive pyjamas – or ‘sleeper suits’ in airline lingo – by Italian fashion house Missoni, paired with matching slippers.

Qatar Airways flies three times daily from Kuala Lumpur to its hub in Doha, and then onwards to over 140 destinations spanning the Middle East, Europe, Africa and more.

Emirates Confirms Two-Class Airbus A380

Emirates Airline will drop its prestigious first class suites from some Airbus A380s as the airline moves to a two-class version of the superjumbo.

The redesigned A380s will carry 615 passengers across its business and economy cabins – an increase of 126 passengers from Emirates' original A380 configuration fitted with 399 economy seats, and up 98 from a later config which boasted 427 economy seats.

All 14 private first class suites in Emirates' flagship A380 will be dropped, along with the two showers reserved for passengers at the pointy end. It's believed the business class cabin will be downsized from 76 seats to just 58, with a whopping 557 passengers in economy, although the business class bar on the upper deck will remain.

Emirates president Tim Clark confirmed the move at a press conference in Copenhagen today, where he announced that the first of the two-class A380s would debut on the Dubai-Copenhagen route from December 1.

Emirates will retain its original three-class A380 layout for the most profitable long-haul routes, while using additional two-class A380 to serve selected markets where there's a high demand for seats, but not at high prices.

Finnair's Airbus A350 Routes to Europe, Asia

  • Finnair Airbus A350 'familiarisation flights' in Europe from October
  • First long-range Finnair A350 international route to Shanghai in October
  • Next Finnair A350s to Beijing in November; Bangkok in December; Hong Kong, Singapore in early 2016
Finnair has slated Airbus A350 flights on selected European routes before switching the advanced jet onto its Shanghai schedule from October.

London, Frankfurt, Hamburg, Stockholm, Copenhagen, Paris, Amsterdam, Barcelona and Vienna will all see the A350 rostered onto Finnair's regular schedules from October as 'crew familiarisation flights', with Finnair's A350 inaugural taking place on October 5 from Helsinki to Rovaniemi in Finnish Lapland.

The full list of planned A350 familiarisation flights to some 15 European cities is available at a350.finnair.com, although the airline notes that "all such flights are subject to changes."

The roadshow is intended to let Finnair trumpet its status as the first European airline to take delivery of the Airbus A350, after Qatar Airways and Vietnam Airlines.

Finnair is now selling tickets on the A350's first long-range international route to Shanghai, commencing October 25. The A350 will also begin flights between Helsinki and Beijing from November 21 and Bangkok from December 4.

Hong Kong will see the next-gen jetliner as of February 1, 2016, with Singapore to follow from May 5.

Finnair's A350 delivery schedule sees four aircraft arriving in the second half of 2015 and seven more between 2016 and 2017, by which time the airline will have retired its current fuel-thirsty A340 jets. A further eight A350s will follow from 2018 through 2023.

Finnair's A350 fleet will sport 46 business class seats using the popular Zodiac Cirrus design best known as the business class seat of Cathay Pacific, as well as American Airlines and Air France.

This will give each traveller direct aisle access and a fully flat bed, along with a large meal table and plenty of space for keeping their inflight stuff close at hand.

The third-gen Cirrus III seat also has a 16 inch touchscreen display plus AC and USB power sockets. Finnair's A350s will also be fitted with inflight Internet in the first step towards a fleet-wide upgrade which will see all of the Finnish airline's jets set for sky-high surfing by 2018.

Sunday, April 12, 2015

Silk Air Launches New Uniform

SilkAir has launched a new uniform design for its cabin crew. The new one-piece uniforms, which took two years to finalise, come in two variations – aqua-blue for junior crew and plum-red for senior crew. They will be launched on all flights on Apr 15 for more than 500 members of SilkAir’s cabin crew.

The launch, titled ‘SilkAir New ColoursRunway Show’, at ION Sky on Friday (Apr 10), opened with an address by Chief Executive of SilkAir, Mr Leslie Thng.

"Over the years, our uniforms have come to be a reflection of how our airline has matured and progressed to become Asia's most awarded regional carrier, with each design portraying the airline's brand strategy and philosophy relevant at that point in time," said Mr Thng.

Both variations of the uniform are accompanied by a dark blue skirt, in order for SilkAir to be synonymous and align with their role as the regional wing of Singapore Airlines.

The new uniform collection was created by local fashion designer, Alexandria Chen, a NAFA graduate who has designed uniform collections for various established hospitality brands.

“The new SilkAir uniform is stylishly cut and fitted with a defined waistline which makes it easy to wear, flexible and comfortable, allowing cabin crew the ease of movement as they carry out their duties,” said Ms Chen.

This latest uniform design marks SilkAir’s fourth uniform change since it was established in 1989. Its previous uniform changes took place in the 1990s, 1994 and 2004.

“The new design captures exactly what our brand stands for today – a blend of style and sophistication with a touch of modernity consistent with the changing times. It symbolises our goal of making every point of our customers’ experiences on-board an absolute ‘Joy to Fly’,” said Mr Thng.

Thursday, April 9, 2015

One World Observatory Opens May 29th

One World Observatory today announced that its official public opening date will be Friday, May 29, 2015. Tickets will be available for purchase beginning tomorrow, Wednesday, April 8, at 10 a.m. EST

In the days leading up to the official public opening, One World Observatory will say a special thank you to New York City by hosting multiple free preview days. On Tuesday, May 26, One World Observatory will invite local school students to see the observatory, and on Wednesday, May 27, the workers that helped build One World Trade Center will be invited. On Thursday, May 28, One World Observatory will host an open house for the general public on a first-come, first-served basis. The exact details surrounding each event will be announced at a later date.

“On May 29, One World Observatory will officially open its doors to the public – offering visitors an inspiring and unparalleled opportunity to experience New York City,” said David Checketts, Chairman and Chief Executive Officer of Legends, operator of the Observatory. “From sweeping panoramic views, to innovative interactive exhibits, to world-class dining options, we expect One World Observatory to be the premier destination and attraction in New York City for both tourists and local residents.”

Positioned on top of the tallest building in the Western Hemisphere – on levels 100, 101, and 102 of the One World Trade Center building – One World Observatory will provide guests with unique, panoramic views of New York City, its most iconic sites, and surrounding waters from above 1,250 feet. A customized guest experience will complement the seemingly endless views – which evoke feelings of the City’s signature pride, hope and determination – and include exhibits and dining options, including a sit-down restaurant.

The experience will invite guests to explore all three levels, each equipped with the latest in innovative technology. Upon entry, guests will be greeted in the Global Welcome Center, where a large video board will feature salutations in an array of languages, and a dynamically generated world map will highlight the hometowns of visitors. Guests will then proceed to a pre-show program, titled Voices, which tells the personal stories of the men and women who built One World Trade Center, and Foundations, which displays facts about the very bedrock on which the building stands. Visitors will board one of five dedicated elevators, termed Sky Pods, to ascend to the 102nd floor in under 60 seconds. Immersive, floor-to-ceiling LED technology in each cab invites guests to experience a virtual time-lapse that recreates the development of New York City’s skyline from the 1600s to present day.

The Sky Pod elevators, among the fastest in the world, will bring passengers directly to the See Forever™ Theater on the 102ndfloor. The See Forever™ Theater will present a two-minute video presentation that combines bird’s eye imagery, time-lapse shots with abstract textures and patterns to present the unique rhythm and pulse of New York City to dramatic life in three dimensions.

The Main Observatory space on the 100th floor will include an interactive skyline “concierge” – City Pulse – that allows guests to deeply connect with the landmarks and neighborhoods they observe from above. At City Pulse, global ambassadors will be stationed under a ring of HD video monitors and outfitted in gesture recognition technology, summoning imagery to the screens and providing guests with close-up views and personalized recommendations.

The Main Observatory also features the Sky Portal where guests are invited to step onto a 14-foot wide circular disc that will deliver an unforgettable view, using real-time, high-definition footage of the streets below.

One World Observatory will also offer three distinct dining options on the 101st floor available to guests with Observatory tickets, including access to curated eateries from casual café fare to seated fine-dining. Catering will be available on the 102nd floor, which will operate as a 9,300 square foot special event space with a maximum capacity of 300. The premier space will include floor-to-ceiling, uninterrupted views, high-end décor and an exclusive, customizable experience with a state-of-the-art sound system and HD projection capabilities.

Price of admission will vary. Guest admission for adults ages 13-64 will be $32. Guest admission for children ages 6-12 will be $26, and guest admissions for seniors ages 65+ will be $30. Guests 5 and under will be admitted at no charge but must have a ticket to enter. All tickets are timed admission and will be valid for a specific time and date. For best availability for summer 2015, guests are encouraged to purchase tickets online in advance.

The Observatory is open year round. Starting May 29th until September 7th operating hours will be 9 a.m. until midnight seven days a week with the last ticket sold at 11:15 p.m. Non-summer operating hours of One World Observatory are from 9:00 a.m. to 8:00 p.m. seven days a week with the last ticket sold at 7:15 p.m. Throughout the course of the year operating hours will be expanded during holiday periods such as Thanksgiving and Christmas.

As previously announced, One World Observatory will offer complimentary admission to 9/11 family members and the rescue and recovery workers who responded on 9/11 and in the months after. Admissions will be administered by the 9/11 Tribute Center, a project of the September 11th Families’ Association that brings together those who want to learn about 9/11 with those who experienced it. Visit tributewtc.org/observatoryfor more information.

Special discounts will also be offered to active and retired members of the U.S. military, with full details to be released at a later date.

Tuesday, April 7, 2015

Korean Air: New Business, First Class on Sydney, Brisbane Flights

SkyTeam member Korean Air is now flying its new business class Prestige Suites from Seoul to both Sydney and Brisbane, giving business travellers more space to work during the day and a fully-flat bed in the evenings for a well-rested journey.
Also in for an upgrade: the first class suites – yet as a Korean Air spokesperson confirmed to Australian Business Traveller, these are almost identical to business class aside from a larger 23-inch entertainment monitor against the 17-inches in the Prestige Suites…
While both cabins are arranged in a 2-2-2 layout, every passenger in business class and first class can still enjoy direct aisle access, as travellers in the window seats can pass their seatmate via a small corridor rather than stepping over them or being stepped over themselves:
It’s a similar concept as found with the Sky Suites aboard Japan Airlines’ newer Boeing 777-300ER aircraft, which are crafted from the same basic seat.

On the ground, Korean Air’s pointy-end passengers can visit the new SkyTeam lounge in Sydney or the Air New Zealand Koru Club in Brisbane, and can stop by the Grand Hyatt Incheon Hotel in Seoul on arrival for free use of the showers and sauna.
When returning home KAL’s business and first class lounges are available to eligible travellers, while first class high flyers are personally escorted from check-in to the lounge and then again to the departure gate, with a duvet sleeper service and Gianfranco Ferre pyjamas greeting them in the sky.
From its hub in Seoul, Korean Air flies to Sydney daily and to Brisbane four times each week, with daytime flights when bound for Asia and overnight services when returning home to Australia.

Credits : Australian Business Traveler 

ANA's New Amenity Kit

Japan's ANA airline is upgrading its first class amenity kit to a miniature version of Samsonite luggage.

The tiny bag is a Mini-Me version of Samsonite's Cosmolite bag and will be issued in four different colours.

The unisex amenity kit will contain the usual assortment of quality skincare and inflight comfort products, but let's be honest – it's the cool bags themselves which every traveller will care most about.

Branded with the ANA logo on one side and Samsonite on the other, the kit's hard-case shell will lend itself to many 'post-flight' uses ranging from a bespoke DIY amenity kit for future travels to a handy gadget bag for USB cables and what-not.

Samsonite is not the first luggage brand name to grace an airline amenity kit, with cute Rimowa and Tumi bags also being prized take-home items from ANA, Thai Airways, EVA Air and Lufthansa (Rimowa) and Delta and Malaysia Airlines (Tumi).

Sunday, April 5, 2015

Malignant

I write about the power of trying, because I want to be okay with failing. I write about generosity because I battle selfishness. I write about joy because I know sorrow. I write about faith because I almost lost mine, and I know what it is to be broken and in need of redemption. I write about gratitude because I am thankful - for all of it.

-  Kristin Armstrong

Hope - Part 007 : April 5th 2015

When there is a slightest bit of hope, don't you wanna know that? 

These are the most frequent question that almost everyone will ask me when I told them I really do not wanna know how my condition is and how things are at this very moment. There was one question that is burning in me to really wanna ask them back. 

Can you name the single worst, most malignant symptoms of terminal cancer? 

It's hope. It's recurrent. And it keeps creeping back in no matter how many times it gets ripped apart.

UM gave me hope in a phase 3 clinical trial. It failed.
NYU hope radio surgery would work. It didn't. 
And Cancer Institute Malaysia, has high high hopes for portent combinations of chemo and ablation. No go.

And every time the hope goes, it takes chunks of you with it. Until you can only find comfort in that ONE thing, that you know you can count on. 

They ask me why am I calm. I am not calm. I don't show doesn't mean I feel okay inside. They asked me to find comfort in a higher power. It's not that I do not believe. I only have this one question. Why would God let that happen, and I don't understand it. You can do everything right, and it doesn't even matter. Why.. I've been looking for answers for the past 7 years. 

There is a thing we say when someone dies. We say it to the families left behind. We say. I'm sorry for your lost. It's a pad little phrase, and an empty one. It's doesn't begin to cover what actually is happening to them. It lets us empathize without forcing us to feel their devastation ourselves. It protects us from feeling that pain. That dark, sinking relentless pain. The kind that can eat you alive. And every day, I thank God for that.

I know what it is walking into a hospital knowing that my condition is just a little to no chance of success. To do all the planning, treatments, and hoping and labor knowing in the end, it may amount to nothing, ven when it's impossible.But I know it is asked of me. If I can't do it, if I am not willing to keep looking for light in the darkest of places, without stopping, even it seems impossible. I will never succeed. 

I can't get too close to just wanna give up. If I felt even a little of the love, the joy, and the hopes that my love ones are saying goodbye to, I wouldn't even able to function. Sometimes, I just wanna look you in the eye, tell you to " just take me home. Take me home, take me to bed and just hold me. "

That some little bit of support, some bit of peace, some bit of closure. Something good. Some little piece of beauty in the mist of some place dark. An unexpected gift. Just when it needed most. That was that one thing that happened - You.

These few weeks hasn't been great for us. I know that you have been the light for me every single day. Keeping my smile going even when things are so bad. You kept my hopes up when I have lost them. You kept the optimism going when I have none to begin with.  You are the one thing good I have now. You are the one thing that keeps me from not believing things are bad. You are aart of that support that I always wanted on top of what I already had. You kept me going forward. 

But there is one thing I hope you'll read it here. The one thing you and I always avoided. If things goes the way we didn't expect to go... Remember this.. And I will keep on fighting on until I draw my very last breath of air. 

You have lost somebody. And you are hurting. But you will get through this. You can survive this. You are strong. It's okay. You are gonna be okay. I promised. And I will always be the one to tell you " Niey " before you go to bed. #3 always. 

Sunday, March 29, 2015

Waiting Game


I sit here, and wait. I'm waiting to see if the lab work on Monday will give us any indication as to what's causing this. We wait, because it's mainly a process of elimination to figure out what the hell is going on inside my body. Some of you may have guessed that no news isn't always good news, especially in my world. It's been a rough couple of days - I'm not going to lie.

My lab work wasn't good. My CEA is up to 25.something. I can't even remember anymore. And, the more acute issue that I wasn't even aware of? My platelets are dangerously low.

When I went in to meet with my Dr on Saturday, it was pretty obvious we had issues. When they all walk in with "that look", you know it's not to share good news. While we are concerned that my CEA has spiked (which I hate hate hate hate), the platelets is a bigger issue. Typically, your platelet count should be at 150k. On Wednesday, mine were at 13k. They were pretty surprised that I was still standing. After some discussion, it was decided that I would have a transfusion of platelets, with the hopes that it would boost my numbers and jump-start my production.

As luck would have it, that didn't happen. The platelet transfusion was simple, about a 90 minute process from start to finish, once they had the blood type-and-screen done.

Decision was made to wait until Saturday (yesterday) to take blood again, to make sure my numbers bounced back to normal. I think we all assumed that my numbers would rebound.

When nurse walked in yesterday and said my Dr. would be in momentarily, I knew things weren't good. She let me down easily. My platelets were at 3k. 147k below where they should be. I didn't even know what to say. I was shocked. I had hoped that the numbers would rebound a little, not drop by 10k in 4 days.

To say I was upset would be an understatement.

During my meeting with my docs yesterday, it became pretty apparent that this is a huge issue. And, it's not just the fact that the numbers are low - the big concern is WHY the numbers are low. There appear to be a variety of reasons, which they are investigating.

They took 10 vials of blood from me yesterday (for a variety of tests, including 6 for a single send-out test to another lab). 10. I jokingly said that, if they stopped taking blood, maybe my numbers wouldn't drop so much. I don't think they found that funny, but sometimes humor is the only thing getting me through these obstacles.

I got a call last night that, after my transfusion yesterday, my numbers rebounded....a little. As of last night, they were up to 11k. It's better, but no where near where they need to be. And, apparently, my now my hemoglobin has dropped. I'm not even sure what that means, or what the next step for that will be.

This whole thing just sucks. I want to be mad, but there's nothing or no one to be mad at. That's very frustrating. I want to have some control over what's happening, even if it just means that eating something or taking something or doing something could help boost the numbers. Unfortunately, there doesn't seem to be anything I can do to help my body do what it's supposed to do. That's infuriating.

I sit here, and wait. I'm waiting to see if the lab work tomorrow will give us any indication as to what's causing this. We wait, because it's mainly a process of elimination to figure out what the hell is going on inside my body.

I asked my Dr. yesterday....what happens next. She doesn't know. We had a brief talk about continuing with chemo, which seems to be doing more harm than good. That was a hard conversation for both of us to have. Don't get me wrong - I'm not giving up. I'm just voicing what goes through my head, and wondering where we go from here.

This just sucks. My platelets are being douchebags, and I can't do anything about it. I hate that.

I'm learning to come to grips with the fact that I can't go to KL, and I am missing you very much right now. Cancelling the trip sucked. It's just another reminder of how awful this is, and how little control I have over what's going on inside my body. And at times too, I can't help to ask am I even doing right by you for letting you be here with me. I am just so confused and I have no idea what else I could do. 

Saturday, March 28, 2015

Thoughts And Love


I am thankful with everyone that who wrote to me. From friends to all the survivors out there. I think one thing we have in common that is we know that this will be a very lonely and tough path to stroll through. I am really sorry that I haven't had the chance to sit down and write back to all of you one by one. 

I promise once things are better, I will take the time to write back to each and everyone of you. I am just thankful I have all the blessings and prayers from y'all.


  1. Nancy Nelson 
    You are a survivor and such a trouper Ricky!!! Things will get better with time.
  2. James and Susan Heldstab 
    Rick this is great that you are posting a blog. Our thoughts and prayers are with you! Keep up the faith:)
  3. Darcy Fredrickson 
    Eric, so sorry to hear your news. Heard of your surgery and hope that all is well. You are a survivor and things will get better they just take time. Be patient and let your partner help you along the way. Hoping to see you out on that bicycle sometime this summer.
  4. steven lambert 
    Sory to hear about the cancer .Hope everything turns out for the best.I AM SURE IT WILL.To help things a long I wll say a prayer for you.
  5. Sue Cody 
    Hi Ricky,
    Wow so sorry to hear that you have to fight with this awful disease. Can’t believe it came up again so suddenly. You are a strong man and I know you will be able to kick this. You are a survivor alright! Hope to get down to see you sometime soon. Will you be doing treatments also? Keeping you and your family in my prayers.
  6. Willis Lee 
    Glad to hear everthing is coming along for the best. I feel that you are a strong fighter. Follow the Doctors orders and pray and every will be alright. Willis.
  7. Julie Monson 
    Hi Eric,
    I heard about the cancer from Jason. I’m so sorry you have to go through this AGAIN, but with the Lord and Leo on your side, you can face anything. You’ve always had a great attitude and I’m sure that your sense of humor makes it easier for all of you. Kevin & I have been praying for you. 
    Julie
  8. Sister Barb 
    Need an update, even though I talk to you somewhat regularly

  9. Ilka Flood 
    Hi Eric,
    I am so very sorry. That must be a scary feeling. You know, medicine has advanced so much in recent years and from what I read chances of surviving this form of cancer are pretty high when it is caught. So keep thinking positive!
    You are in my thoughts and prayers.
    Ilka
  10. Steve King 
    eric, i am a computer idiot. finally found this to reply to you. i don’t think my emails to the frontier deal are getting through, also, i clicked on the contact button and sent you something in there. i hope you get it somehow, it was really good stuff, ha, ha.
    thinking of you all the time. read your “Live Today With My All Series” you are a very inspirational person.
    nothing can help you more than your attitude and you have the best. just wanted to let you know i’m trying to reach you dang it! guess i could call but never know when is best and my fingers don’t fit into that rotary dial anymore.
    take care and prayers are always being said.
    Steve
  11. nick catricala 
    Hey Eric,
    thanks for all your automatic emails messages about airliners… I am exploring your blog here and I come across this page… HOW ARTE YOU DOING these days? My wish is that you are doing well in every way and in the event that your health side is not going as great as you want… please connect with me… I have some info that may be of interest to you in regard to colon cancer (nothing to buy…)
    Thanks again for all your messages and look forward to chat with you in person soon.
    _nickc

  12. John Rollow 
    I just happened on your site here in the group and noticed the colon cancer tab. Where are the posts on your process with that?
    I am a colon cancer survivor. Spring 1996 diagnosed, had surgery, followed by chemo and radiation therapy. Have a colostomy. But healthy and cancer free (at least from that one).
    I’ve also had a heart attack and now diabetic neuropathy. And my life style keeps getting healthier and healthier as I learn more about what a healthy life style really is (altho my whole life was a pretty healthy one).
    Best of luck. Keep posting.

Tuesday, March 24, 2015

Time, Losing and A Relapse

Love is what we were born with. Fear is what we learned here.

- Marianne Williamson

Anger & Fear - Part 008 : March 25th 2015



I'm not afraid of moving on and letting go. It's just so hard to say goodbye to what I know. Especially when you know you have everything to lose. A relapse shouldn't be like a big deal any more after so many years, many may think.... But the fact is, it was never easy to even understand what went wrong. There were so much going on inside, that sometimes you feel like it is near impossible to even wanna let it all out. I'm looking out from the crossroads, and I wanna take a breath and close my eyes. But what makes this time even harder than the past? 

When my oncologist called and told me to come in, I already had that sick feeling in my stomach. Few weeks ago, when I see bruises on my arm, or under my armpits, bleeding while brushing my teeth, or just nose bleeding out of no where, to many these are just harmless occurrence that happens all the time. But these are the markers and red flags for me. I went back to her and she told me that there is nothing to worry and my stats are looking good. And now she said I needed attention immediately. I don't even have a week to think about when is the best time to start treatments. I lost it.. I told her she screw up.. but is that enough to make it go away?

There are things that we have in life that we wanna hold on to. There are the people that you never wanna let go. But at times like this, everything went into a grey area. I use to be clear of what I wanted. But what do I want? What can I do to make everything better? For him and also family and friends? I can't put myself in the right place to see what is next from here. 

I know this will never be over soon. But what can I do..... I wanna hold forever..... I don't wanna give in..... but what else can I do.... 

Thai Airways to End Cargo Services and Downsize its Aircraft Fleet

Thai Airways is making major changes to its services and aircraft fleet. Restructuring within the company will put an end to its freighter operations. Next week, the airline will launch its final two 747-400BCF services.

The company will also stop A340-600 services. Four A330-300 aircrafts will also be decommissioned. By July, Thai Airways hopes to sell 22 of its aircrafts.

The stoppage of services and decommissioning of planes comes amidst a series of losses for the company. The Thai carrier has approximately $5.9bn in debts (the highest in the region) and has seen 7 straight months of losses.

The company’s restructuring is being overseen by Thai Airways president Charumporn Jotikasthira. Charumporn is expected to cut capacity by 20%, sell non-core assets and reduce the fleet size from 101 to 77 aircraft by the end of 2015. As part of the downsizing, the company will be phasing out A340s and 747s. Plans to close routes to Moscow, Johannesburg and Madrid have also been announced.

Thai Airways was once a leader in the cargo market, but the company has stopped and started its freight services multiple times in recent years. The carrier was the first to use a 777F in hopes of returning to freighters. But its losses are partly due to the fact that air freight exports have declined. BFS (Bangkok Flight Services) stated that exports were down 4% in February year-over-year.

The decision to stop cargo services gives other competitors, like Hong Kong’s Cathay Pacific, an advantage. Cathay Pacific is investing heavily in cargo despite Thai Airways and IAG stopping their services. Other airlines, like AF-KLM and Singapore Airlines, have decided not to re-invest.

While Thai Airways has seen consecutive losses, Cathay Pacific has seen an increased profit of 20%. Cargo revenues were up in the middle of 2014, which provided the company with a strong fourth quarter.

The 10 Best Airports In The World For 2015

Consumer aviation website Skytrax has published its latest annual World Airport Awards, and for the third consecutive year, Singapore’s Changi International Airport took the crown as the world’s best airport. It serves as one of Southeast Asia’s largest transit hubs and is a major cog in the city-state’s bustling economy.

“To win this prestigious award three years in succession is a remarkable achievement for Changi Airport Singapore, and underlines its popularity amongst air travellers as the world’s Best Airport,” Skytrax CEO Edward Plaisted said. “Changi Airport lives up to its reputation as the world’s Best Airport and rather than dwell on earlier success, the airport continues to innovate and concentrate on making the customer experience in the airport environment the most enjoyable.”

The Skytrax annual rankings are based on the impressions of over 13 million flyers from 112 countries. More than 550 airports were included in the survey, which covers 39 service and performance parameters, including facility comfort, location of bathrooms, and the language skills of the airport staff.

10. Beijing Capital International Airport (PEK)

Yearly passengers: 83.7 million
Previous rank: 7
Why it's awesome: As the second-busiest airport in the world, Beijing's Capital Airport has played a major role in the Chinese capital's explosive growth.
With this growth, the airport has built new facilities and upgraded its infrastructure. Capital's Terminal 3 was rated as the 10th-best terminal in the world.

9. Amsterdam Schiphol Airport (AMS)

Yearly passengers: 52.6 million
Previous rank: 5
Why it's awesome: Amsterdam's Schiphol Airport is one of the busiest airports in Europe and serves as the hub for KLM, Transavia, and Delta.
Opened in 1916, Schiphol is noted for its wide variety of leisure activities and has a library in which flyers can cozy up with a good book while waiting for their flights.

8. London Heathrow Airport (LHR)

Yearly passengers: 72.4 million
Previous rank: 10
Why it's awesome: Heathrow is the world's third-busiest airport and the largest of the five primary airports serving London.
Heathrow is in the midst of a major renovation with the addition of a brand new Terminal 2 building. It's seven-year-old Terminal 5 building was named the best airport terminal in the world by Skytrax.
Heathrow serves as the main hub for British Airways and Virgin Atlantic.

7. Central Japan International Airport (NGO)

Yearly passengers: 9.8 million
Previous rank: 12
Why it's awesome: Built on an artificial island in the middle of Ise Bay near the city of Nagoya, Central Japan International -- also known as Centrair -- serves as a focus city for Japan Airlines and ANA.
Centrair holds the distinction as the best regional airport in the world.
It has a 1,000-foot-long sky deck where passengers can watch ships sail into Nagoya Port. There's also a traditional Japanese bathhouse where you can have a relaxing soak while watching the sunset over the bay.

6. Zurich Airport (ZRH)

Yearly passengers: 24.9 million
Previous rank: 8
Why it's awesome: Just eight miles from the heart of Zurich, the airport serves as the home for Swiss International Air Lines and as a hub linking Switzerland's largest city with the rest of the country.
For passengers with an extended layover, Zurich Airport offers bicycle and inline-skate rentals and excursions to the Swiss Museum of Transport Lucerne.

5. Tokyo Haneda International Airport (HND)

Yearly passengers: 68.9 million
Previous rank: 6
Why it's awesome: Haneda is one of two major international airports that serve the Tokyo area. Located a few miles away from the heart of the Japanese capital, Haneda has proved to be a popular port of entry for business travellers and tourists.
The world's fourth-busiest airport, Haneda is know for its service efficiency, cleanliness, and shopping.

4. Hong Kong International Airport (HKG)

Yearly passengers: 59.6 million
Previous rank: 4
Why it's awesome: Built on an artificial island off the coat of Hong Kong, HKG has become one of the most popular facilities in the world since it opened in 1998.
One of the busiest airports in Asia, Hong Kong International serves as the home to Cathay Pacific, Hong Kong Airlines, and Dragonair.
Be sure to play around at the SkyCity Nine Eagles golf course near Terminal 2.

3. Munich Airport (MUC)

Yearly passengers: 38.7 million
Previous rank: 3
Why it's awesome: Located northeast of downtown Munich, MUC is one of the busiest airports in Europe and the second-busiest in Germany, after Frankfurt.
Munich serves as a major hub for Air Berlin, Lufthansa, and Condor and it features airy glass-heavy architecture. A nearby visitors park features minigolf and a display of historic aircraft.

2. Incheon International Airport (ICN)

Yearly passengers: 41.7 million
Previous rank: 2
Why it's awesome: Once again, Incheon is the world's second best airport. Located on an island just outside of the South Korean capital, Incheon is home base to Korean Air and is the 24th-busiest airport in the world. It opened in 2001.
Incheon's highly regarded facilities feature an array of shopping and dining options, in addition to a bevy of cultural performances. The airport even has a Korean culture museum.

1. Singapore Changi International Airport (SIN)

Yearly passengers: 53.7 million
Previous rank: 1
Why it's awesome: For the third year in a row, Changi takes the crown as the world's best airport. Changi serves as home to Singapore Airlines, Silkair, and Tigerair and is the 13th busiest airport in the world.
The Singaporean airport has received praise from flyers for its beautiful architecture, efficient operation, luxurious amenities, and broad offering of dining and shopping options.
Flyers passing through are treated to movie theatres, a multimedia entertainment deck, spas, and a wild corkscrew slide.
 

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