Breathing

And I try not to think about dinner for one

Close my eyes and pretend that this house is a home

‘Cause I’ve got to believe

I’m not the only one

And I try not to dream about finding someone

Who might share all the reasons why love hasn’t come

‘Cause I’ve got to believe

I’m not the only one

Breathing

I’m not the only heart beating

There’s nothing worse than just feeling

The weight of walking alone

Tell me

I’m not the only one

And I keep all my hopes from clouding my eyes

Keep my distance, my chin up, and talk with a smile

‘Cause I’ve got to believe there’s more than barely

Breathing

I’m not the only heart beating

There’s nothing worse than just feeling

The weight of walking alone

Tell me

I’m not the only one

Empty and crawling

Wincing and falling

Back into this skin

Said I’m leaving

It’s not what I wanted

The will I keep on

Breathing

Be the only heart beating

There’s nothing worse than just feeling

The weight of walking alone

Tell me

I’m not the only one

I’m not the only one

Am I the only one?

A very very old song that I wanted to share. I don't know why sometimes I just love to dig back into my own library to find some tunes which I haven't sold or produce. Somehow, for today (Which applies only for today as I am still as fickle minded as I am) I really feel like releasing this tune. Lyrics are by Jill & Cow. I written this on the night I realize things are going to change for me. Yeah yeah, some may say I dig into emotional stuff. Which is true! I am not gonna deny that. Part of being a song writer is to feel what some emotions which meant to be express in music. I am still repeating on the demo we have done two years ago. But the only thing that will stop me from asking Cow to do this again is I still do not wanna spoil her mood. Not really spoiling but just wanted her to still be able to sink in that emotion. I did tell you guys she is engaged now didn't I? In case I didn't, now you know. Hahaha...

I don't know, many parts and bits within feels that doing this song is a closure to another chapter. One of my resolutions this year is to have a proper end to things which are meant to be. So starting with this song. Been doing some arrangement with it. But still didn't really get the whole picture into the song so far. Unless Cow will be singing for me in this song, then I don't need much work to do. LOL (So gonna get killed by her) It is just a few days me being back here in Malaysia, and I start to miss them over back there. Maybe because there ain't much I could do for now. Still down with the bug in bed. Been doing some thinking and really trying hard to finish up my post trip summary. 

There is one person I have to meet this trip back. Someone who really meant tonnes to me. But the question is always when will that be. We are like at two different ends. But this time it must happen. Without him, it seems that part of the heart and soul doesn't really sync. Someone who always knew how it felt for me. I know if I don't even try to make this happen, I guess I will be mince into pieces and being in between this bun feeding to dogs. ( I have tried my best to make it sound nice) But the thing is, I miss you a lot. So much to talk to you about. So much things to bring to you too. So many "Flyby" souvenirs too by OTHERS! Which I didn't even have any!! And yes, this is directing shooting to Dumdum and COW! You both are hopeless! Umm.. I guess I am starting to rant and getting outta topic am I?! :P

Anyway, just wanted to share this lyrics with you guys first. Hopefully could get this song done much sooner and lets see shall it be release from there.