Feeling The Blues

One of the best moments in life is when we share that special moment with someone that really matters to is. But seemingly there is always a spot where it isn't enough for us. The thing I really ask myself was when will it be enough? Looking at time pass by, we do always miss those moments we really wish we take it seriously.

Maybe I am feeling just a little disturb. Or to be perfectly honest, jealous. I don't know what is wrong with me. I just felt sometimes, the priority was just crap to me. Whenever I think of it more, I felt like I just couldn't breath. I put effort to spend time with them, but all they have in mind was the in-laws. 

Listening to Clown a cover did by Charice originally sang by Emeli Sande. Just like what the song puts it. I am desperate I suppose. Desperate to make it right. But I wonder now am I trying too hard? Maybe I was.

I don't know is it the weather or me, I am feeling nostalgic a lot today. Missing certain people in my life. I really wish you were here. I guess it is ok for me to be emotional once a while. I just am so tired today. The only thing now in my mind that why is it all you. I wanna shout, I wanna sing, I wanna cry out! But I know the neighbor will be shouting back at me if I do.

Looking out the window with the raindrops. Just exactly the way I am feeling much right now. Time to go to bed for now. Hope it would be better in the morning.