Technically

I am actually really excited about the new song debut today. It is just hours. And I couldn't wait for the reviews. Technically, I am prepared for the worst either way. Since I couldn't possibly sleep, I took my time to actually clean up my room. Yes, you didn't read it wrongly. I did clean up everything. New sheets, vacuumed and all. Finishing everything now, just relaxing on bed waiting for time to pass.

Technically, I am blogging about crap again. And I really do appreciate about the response from my readers about that "Dare And Truth" game. I suppose I'm choosing to pass. In many ways, would still prefer something that are meant to be private be private. And one of the biggest thing is I don't think I could write in that kinda erotic language! Not like one of the blogger that I'm following. I was like really impressed with the words he choose to use. Pure erotic porn I would say! Hahaha.. You know who you are. :-P You are really gifted being a blogger. Do consider writing erotic fictions. I think you will do well.

And technically, I wanna thank you for all the responses regarding the accident that happen between me and Dumdum. Clearly, I was over thinking about it. Even a friend ask me not to take his place as drama king. LOL I miss you a lot Cornflakes!  And when things happened, I talked to Mr D right away. He just knew what to say. I am glad to have him in my life. You were right. Emotionally, we both are connected at the time when we were talking. And It was just the right chemistry between two wrong people. Technically, that is true. I never see any possible future for the two queens.

I think I somehow stirred up the question about me being celibate at this period of time. I'm gonna make things simple. In a lot of ways, I came to a point where I really felt the emptiness. I shall be honest, within that period of time me being a capital HOE, from time to time, the sex was just out of the world. It was uninhibited, it was pure pleasure, satisfaction came without any warning. It was beyond what I have ever came across my entire life. But the question surface after the sex. When everything is over, I really do felt like I was being sucked into this kinda black hole.

Wild crazy mindless sex? or...

Someone you wanna show love and giving in everything to?

To be honest, Non of the great sex existed within my relationships. But the love making within the relationship is incomparable. I felt whole, complete. It is something really different. As being a train wreak at that point, I poisoned myself not to feel those emotions at all. And that was why I got hooked to drugs and all. Between sex and love making, I think I kinda made myself clear of my choices. Of course from time to time I still have the urge! I'm just a regular 28 year old fella who has normal needs. What to do about it? Try not to log into Grindr, or any social network sites, Try to just go for a swim or something, or even just head out with family and friends to get myself off the edge! Is it hard? It is. But it just the determination that drives me on.

But the thing is, I'm not sorry that I did all those mistakes. Because with those things I have done, I was still blessed. A few old friends walked back into my life. But at points, with a price to pay. So, it is kinda a moral thingy I am doing to myself. Nothing to do with whatever thing that others would come across with. And of course with a personal reason that matters to my heart. On that note, I shall still keep it to myself.

So technically I have tried my best to answer as much questions that I have got in emails and on twitter. I hope this answers most of it. I hope.. And I just realize the amount of technically word I have been using on this post. So I think I would be naming it that either. :) So technically for the last time, I'm happy with my progress of staying away from drugs and life is really treating me well. Great people in my life, great company, great music and great effort. Life is still good even shits happen all the time. :)

Memories

It just came back today. Smiling to a painful past.
Glad that our path crossed. Goodbye baby J.
The memory will always live on.
A lesson in life that I will never forget.

Setting The Record Straight... Or Not

It has been really weird out between me and Dumdum. Like seriously weird out. Something really weird happen while we were just cuddling in bed and talk. To kill the buzz early, NO! We didn't do anything! Dumdum is a really close friend of mine for the past few years since we got into the studio. I remember I was like having a star-struck when I first saw him. Anyway that is not the story. I have been sitting here all morning thinking what should I do about what I actually did. Sigh..

Dumdum is in love with Sauli for years now. And I really admire the both of them. Extreme different yet similar. Maybe it was the alcohol? Or I am highly dose on meds? Or it really did happen. It all started off with what everyone around me has the issue of choosing to be celibate. Yet, I didn't really told anyone why till last night. Except of telling to Andrew few months back. But somehow, Dumdum concern was what is going to happen with me.

I don't deny that choosing to stay celibate isn't really something I choose for myself. But when I told him, he just asked me out of no where.

Then what will happen after that one year? Will your reasons be valid? He will never know what are you doing for him now. It is just something that not everyone could digest baby.

I got stuck right there. Don't know what to say to continue the conversation. Dumdum was right about that. It was just a mere action of irrationality. But I could just change it to another way of seeing it. Taking up as a challenge to self disciplined myself? Which I didn't say out load. I know Dumdum will give me another slap right in the face.

Everyone has a past. I know I myself have one that I am not proud of either. I could be label as a slut if that is a word. I was just at a state of self destruction. I didn't really cared much about myself at that point. Embarrassing moment are inevitable. I didn't even remember the name of fellas I went to bed with just right after I slept with them. I send one out the door and welcome another one in. I was a major capital HOE!

Why am I talking about this anyway? Anyhow back to what happen last night. Right, I told Dumdum why I actually took that oath. He was really honest about how he really felt, He said he would never understood why I would do such thing for someone who just don't see why. I told him sometimes, love is blind. I don't think I am really wanting to get into a relationship either at the moment. Not that I do not want it, but the fact is to have that right one at the right time. It has never been that way for me since baby J happen. It has always been the wrong time. But I am not complaining about it. As I know that with them in my life, I really do got great friends.

And by saying that, Dumdum went mad with me. He got up from the bed and kinda like shouting but not really shouting. Saying that why am I always like this? He pinned me down and wanted to punch me with that look. But  he didn't. What he did really made having a big headache now. He just kissed me. I do not really know now what is going on between us but I am pretty sure nothing is going to be. I know I am as guilty. I kissed him back. We made out through the night. (And for the last time, nothing happened besides snogging)

Dumdum is someone really close to me and I really appreciate everything we have. But it is just not right. Sauli is his love of his life. Not me, I am just a close friend of his. And also a work mate. Since I got up, I was just making coffee in the kitchen and thinking what have I really done. And after a while, Dumdum walked in with his big sexy smile. He is such a sunshine. I smiled back and poured him a cuppa too. I wanted to talk to him about what happen but he kinda didn't make any effort at all like it really didn't happen. Should I just let it be? I am really confused now. I never seen him as someone who I will have that kinda romantic feeling with. It feels so wrong yet what happen was just so right. Or I am speaking in a position that I am too dry?!? Ok, I know that joke is lame. I get it!

Trying to think straight at the moment, what do I actually feel about this? I know I still have strong affection towards one soul in life. But that soul is unreachable in many ways. And now Dumdum just complicates it. I seriously need a bro-intervention with him or a long distance call back to LA to my cow for a girl talk? I am really confused. I don't want anything to happen to Dumdum and Sauli. But what happen between us wasn't a dream too. It wasn't right. What should I do now.

Is Rape A Joke To You?

To all those who don’t think the rape joke was a problem, or rape jokes are a problem.

I get it, you’re a decent guy. I can even believe it. You’ve never raped anybody. You would NEVER rape anybody. You’re upset that all these feminists are trying to accuse you of doing something or connect you to doing something that, as far as you’re concerned, you’ve never done and would never condone.

And they’ve told you about triggers, and PTSD, and how one in six women is a survivor, and you get it. You do. But you can’t let every time someone gets all upset get in the way of you having a good time, right?

So fine. If all those arguments aren’t going anything for you, let me tell you this. And I tell you this because I genuinely believe you mean it when you say you don’t want to hurt anybody, and you don’t see the harm, and that it’s important to you to do your best to be a decent and good person. And I genuinely believe you when you say you would never associate with a rapist and you think rape really is a very bad thing.

Because this is why I refuse to take rape jokes sitting down-

6% of college age men, slightly over 1 in 20, will admit to raping someone in anonymous surveys, as long as the word “rape” isn’t used in the description of the act.

6% of Penny Arcade’s target demographic will admit to actually being rapists when asked.

A lot of people accuse feminists of thinking that all men are rapists. That’s not true. But do you know who think all men are rapists?

Rapists do.

They really do. In psychological study, the profiling, the studies, it comes out again and again.

Virtually all rapists genuinely believe that all men rape, and other men just keep it hushed up better. And more, these people who really are rapists are constantly reaffirmed in their belief about the rest of mankind being rapists like them by things like rape jokes, that dismiss and normalize the idea of rape.

If one in twenty guys is a real and true rapist, and you have any amount of social activity with other guys like yourself, really cool guy, then it is almost a statistical certainty that one time hanging out with friends and their friends, playing Halo with a bunch of guys online, in a WoW guild, or elsewhere, you were talking to a rapist. Not your fault. You can’t tell a rapist apart any better than anyone else can. It’s not like they announce themselves.

But, here’s the thing. It’s very likely that in some of these interactions with these guys, at some point or another someone told a rape joke. You, decent guy that you are, understood that they didn’t mean it, and it was just a joke. And so you laughed.

And, decent guy who would never condone rape, who would step in and stop rape if he saw it, who understands that rape is awful and wrong and bad, when you laughed?

That rapist who was in the group with you, that rapist thought that you were on his side. That rapist knew that you were a rapist like him. And he felt validated, and he felt he was among his comrades.

You. The rapist’s comrade.

And if that doesn’t make you feel sick to your stomach, if that doesn’t make you want to throw up, if that doesn’t disturb you or bother you or make you feel like maybe you should at least consider not participating in that kind of humor anymore…

Well, maybe you aren’t as opposed to rapists as you claim.

When It Hits

I suppose these are one of the days when the emotions crash down. I will give myself a pat on the shoulder. I  am slowly learning the way to hold myself together. Or it was just me missing my buds and life back in New York and KL. And out of the blue, I was thinking a lot about baby J. Few more days, and I still remember how that emotion was when you say your goodbye. Till this very day, there is still a hallow in my chest that I got to live through. Don't get me wrong, it just isn't about I am still clinging on him but just there is an answer to it that I never knew. We both we hurt. But you move on easier than me. I know it is lame but I am gonna admit it that it is just part of me that wanted to know why.

I was sitting at Kim Gary Mid Valley when you just say your goodbyes by text. It seems like a closure for you but it isn't for me. I still remember my last words were these exact words.

Do not say hi if we bump into each other. Do not even smile. Just treat me as someone you used to know. 

But you being you, even at that point, your replied inked into my heart

No I will always see you as someone I used to love.

I didn't reply after that. I was young and naive. I was a total train wreak. I did many things that anyone could think of. I let go of everything. I let myself sink. No one understood, no one could get through me. I was in just a transition of destroying myself. But life isn't treating me bad at all. Through the rough journey, An old friend came back into my life. Not one but two. But those were the dark days of mine. Indulging in drugs and  needless to care about what I was actually doing.

I know it may sound stupid to many that I took years for a comeback. Like I say it in my earlier post, I think of you from time to time. But it is a memory just to remember. To many it is a painful memory to keep. But I don't wanna be a coward anymore and I am tired of running. I face my ghost of my past.

Sitting here in the park in a beautiful Autumn's day, feeling the breeze and let myself go back to the dark ages. I use to feel scare whenever all these emotions rolling into me. But not any more. I know Back home, I have a beautiful family to go back to. My big three in the states who loves me without judging any part of me, and my besties in Malaysia. Honestly, I am really blessed to be in a place surrounded with so much love and care.

I don't even know now why am I writing this. Started with a painful past and ended with a beautiful smile. I am really blessed. In so many ways possible. I do not regretting going through all the pain at all. And I know it is not the end of the journey yet but I am already smiling. And P!nk's Beam Me Up is playing on my playlist now. Smiling into the sun.

P/S - About the dare post, I decided to pass. Somehow what are meant to be private should stay private. :)

The Dare Of Truth... Or Not

Ok fine, I am being dared by a close friend and a blogger too here. As agreed, no names to be named here. But I did not accept any challenge just yet at the moment. I am being dared to blog about something really intimate and erotic here. What is wrong with that bloody fella. I feel like killing him and tearing him into pieces once I touch down in KL or just give him a big tight hug and snog him like there isn't tomorrow.

I am trying to find peace and wanting to keep things simple. I don't see his angle yet so far for me to do so. But I am still wondering why he dares me to do such thing. It isn't like I dare or not to do so. But I just gotta know his angle. I am still wondering why does he have such idea to do such challenge.

In a way, it is partially excited and not so excited to it. I don't know. it is just something that I always think it's private and yet it might be something new to what I always blog about. Hmm..

Contemplating about it. I am not saying I am not going to do it, nor I am doing it just yet.

Never Gone

3 more days and it is another round of judgement from the public. Seriously, I'm excited and also terrified. It has been a long time since a really explosive Pop rock genre is being written. And it has a little twist of faith that I was holding all this while. I wish I could post the song right now to share it with you guys first. But due infringement and copy rights. We just gotta wait for another 3 days.

The lyrics by Colton is just amazing. Don't worry, I get to share it here. Hopefully you guys will love it as much as I do. He is just gifted. The lyrics compliments the melody perfectly. I really can't wait for the debut. By far one of my proudest work in my career. On the other hand, Wanna congratulate the beautiful Cow for topping out on the top in the latest sales figure.

As the latest sales figures from Nielsen SoundScan confirm her current hit, "Stronger (What Doesn't Kill You)," to be the best-selling Idol single of all time, surpassing the long-time champion, Underwood's "Before He Cheats."

"Stronger" has sold 3,510,000 singles as of today, beating "Before He Cheats," which has moved 3,509,000 copies since its release in 2006. "Stronger" ruled The Billboard Hot 100 for three weeks, making it Kelly's longest-running No. 1 ("A Moment Like This" reigned for two weeks in 2002 and "My Life Would Suck Without You" ruled for two weeks in 2009). "Stronger" went to No. 1 on 11 different Billboard charts, including Hot Digital Songs, Adult Top 40, Hot Dance Club Play and the Adult Contemporary tally, where it is in pole position for the fifth consecutive week.

Just counting digital downloads of singles, Kelly wins the race with 24,100,000 copies sold as of today, ahead of Underwood's sales total of 22,535,000 digital songs. Keep on rocking the world babe! But as of now, here are the lyrics of Never Gone. Get ya iTunes ready in 3 days! Support great music. I'm sure many could relate to the song. 

Lights off, a shot in the dark
We get lost when we’re playing a part
We lay blame like we know what’s best
It’s a shame…

We break when we fall too hard
Lose faith when we’re torn apart
Don’t say you’re too far gone
It’s a shame
It’s a shame

There’s space between our lives
Hard to face, but I know we try
To revive, bring it back to life
Don’t walk away
Don’t walk away

I’m still standing here
No I didn’t disappear
Now the lights are on
See I was never gone 

I let go of your hand
To help you understand 
With you all along
Yeah, I was never gone 

I never ever left you
Never ever left you, no.

A New Celebration - Idiotic Way

In many ways, I love my boys. They just know how to make things better even with the hardest way life could treat you. I am really impressed with what is really going on in their head. Sometimes, I even wonder if they are ever from the same planet as I do.

As usual, whenever I see my boys, the topic of - SEX will never fail to surface. It is just pure madness and seriously I was laughing so hard, I couldn't even finish dinner. Ron and Brandon are straight and the only gay guys are me and Dumdum. As usual, personal attack is inevitable. But in a good way I suppose. It all went pretty well before the drinks started. As usual, I meet up with Dumdum first for a quick bite. Seriously, even it is just weeks, I miss him so much.

I kinda needed him to stick around. But with his hilarious tour schedule, it is barely possible. But I know he really made time to see me and dine with me. It is just like being around my girls. Haha.. I think that is kinda a common ground for us. Anyhow, he is as messy as he was, unlike what we see on the cover of rolling stones. Sometimes I wonder why isn't he that way? Anyhow, he is just a great guy to me. Not an icon or artist. A friend I would call.

During dinner, I guess that out of concern AGAIN, my choice of staying celibate for a year seems to be like a problem to them. God I really wish I understood what they are thinking at the moment. I really do wonder is it that bad to just stay celibate? I have my reasons to fulfill such task but it is just for one year and it has already been like 7-8 months now. What is wrong with that? Oh my god, if you guys were there, I think you guys will just faint with all the reasons they could come out with.

Honestly, I still don't understand like why choosing to stay celibate for a year is like a big deal to many. The funniest thing was Dumdum says that if I don't start having sex, my balls are just like two big bags of corn soup. That is really grouse for the record. Imma just impressed with all the ideas they came out. Even Ron says that I might be having a transition of being a pussy. What the hell was that?!?! It was really a great night out.

Anyhow, we did talk about the condition that I am facing at the  moment, and believe it or not, they are just classic. Ron and Dumdum was happy. They says that if I would stay miserable, that means more good song I could write for them! What the fuck! I do write happy songs too. Umm.. I think I did. Never mind. But being with them it just shows me that in life, no matter how bad things could go wrong, you always know who are there with you and just see you for who you are. Not another sick person. For that, it is really something worth celebrating. And also not missing out my chance to say this, Mr D, do remember I would always be that person who celebrate your life with no matter under what circumstances. Whatever crap the world is giving you, I just want you to know that all of us are here with you.

Anyhow, time for me to head to bed. It is getting late. The cold autumn air filled up the whole city. Looking out my window, all I know now how much I miss Cow, I miss home, and I miss Malaysia food! I really can't wait to get back. And also a special shout out to my boy Garend!!! Happy Birthday!! How many candles again on the cake??? See I love you so much!!!

Signing off, Good nitey world.

What Could Go Wrong Right?

Feeling pretty mellow today. I wish I could like be jumping up around like I use to. But now I guess the timing isn't right after the opt. But all is still well I suppose. Sinking myself with a little jazz and gospel music today. I realize how sexy the sound of a marimba could be. Good news are rolling in these few days. Not just about me, but also about those I really cared for in life.

I gotta congrats my Cow. Her album is now officially certified platinum! I knew it will be great. She could sing the phonebook and still sounded good. I love you girl! Keep doing what you are doing. You are meant to being so much joy with ya voice.

My both of my bestie that end up together. Congrats to them too for their third anniversary. Seems like the wedding bells will be sounding real soon. God, soon I will be the only single fellow. Any takers? I am real cheap. Ice-cream and cheese burgers will buy me. LOL..

I don't know it is just me or the music or even the meds. All I know lying here listening to how Cow did the song, feeling every bit of her voice and understand when she wrote this song. I guess I am talking crap again. But Andrew would know what I am trying to say here. God I miss everyone back in Malaysia. I haven't congratulate him yet till now. Anyway, I have been trying to stay away from Facebook to avoid negativity. I got no idea but sometimes the way how others react to some little thing in life just annoys me much. 

Some ways, I am kinda glad with what I am going through in life. I know it hasn't been easy for me and my family to cope with my cancer since 7 years ago, but I am kinda happy with everything. I do see a lot of things in it's best way. But yes, I am not gonna deny too on my melodramatic side of myself that surface once a while. Well, this is life right? We should be loving every single day. It is too short for us to give hate. Living with empathy and understanding of others really made me who I am today.

Been reading a lot of blogs these few days. I guess the word Love is what drives the walks of life. I would be lying if I say I don't need love. I guess those who knew me knows that I am a sucker for that. Even my write up on my resume stated clearly I live to love. I know it is kinda lame but this is who I am I suppose. Even saying so, I feel that sometimes, when it happens it happens, when it doesn't it just doesn't. I don't know do I actually make sense or not. But just how I felt about it. 

Just like this song. I do not know that will you guys feel what I am feeling right now with it. Kelly just know how to tell a story when she sings. I will let you guys judge it yourself. She never sounded better doing ballads. 

I know I am just being on the surface in many aspects, but gimme a little time to let it sink it. I know you guys will be reading this. (as if I don't know that you guys been doing this for years. I am not dumb too :-P) I just need a little space to let everything sink in. I wouldn't say it is bad news nor good news. I guess all I can say is come what may. I know you guys love me but I really just need some time. :) You guys will understand I know. For that, I love you loads!

So, sit back and enjoy Kelly does what she does best. - Moo'ing! Lol.. Andrew, I know you gonna role ya eyes when I always make fun of her. I just miss all of you. I really do. I couldn't just describe how much I do.

Singapore Joins Emirates’ Airbus A380 Network

Emirates will boost its Dubai-Singapore route with the introduction of a permanent Airbus A380 service from December 1, 2012. The Dubai-based airline will be the first and only carrier to offer a scheduled A380 service on this route.

The 517-seat A380 aircraft will be deployed for flights EK354 and EK355 on the back of strong passenger demand in both directions, replacing the 354-seat Boeing 777-300ER, a 46 per cent increase in capacity.

With the addition of A380 services, Emirates’ total capacity across four daily services from Dubai to Singapore increases to 1,659 seats daily. The launch of A380 services confirms Changi Airport’s status as Emirates’ Southeast Asian hub with over 1,100 seats daily connecting through to Brisbane, Melbourne and Colombo, and the strengthening of its vertically integrated business model via dnata’s airport services, ground handling and catering operations.

“Emirates is currently operating a two week ad-hoc Airbus A380 service between Dubai and Singapore which has received extremely positive responses from our passengers. In light of this we have decided to bring our flagship aircraft to Singapore on a permanent basis. This follows our progressive build-up of services on this route over the last few years. Despite the current global economic uncertainty, we remain committed to the Singapore market adding significant seat capacity – over 2,200 seats a week – which is set to foster tourism and trade between Singapore, Dubai and beyond,” said Salem Obaidalla, Emirates’ senior vice-president for commercial operations in the Far East and Australasia.

“The signature Emirates A380 service is pivotal to our overall business strategy. Our passengers in Singapore can look forward to enjoying the widely admired and popular aircraft, known for its quietness, spaciousness and award-winning on-board products, all the way from Singapore into much of Europe that includes Amsterdam, London Heathrow, Manchester, Munich, Paris and Rome,” added Obaidalla.

The Emirates A380’s three-class configuration consists of 14 private first class suites, 76 lie-flat beds in business class and 427 seats in economy class. Passengers across all cabins will get to enjoy over 1,400 channels on Emirates’ award-winning digital widescreen inflight entertainment system, ICE, and stay connected to the Internet throughout their journey with high speed Wi-Fi access.

Emirates’ A380 offers first and business class passengers the unique opportunity to socialise, relax and even do business in its onboard lounge. First-class passengers have the added luxury of two exquisitely designed onboard shower spas, offering them a revitalised and refreshed arrival at their destination.

Flight EK354 departs Dubai daily at 3:25am and arrives in Singapore at 2:40pm. The return daily flight, EK355, departs Singapore at 9:35pm and arrives in Dubai at 1:00am. All times are local.

The demand for Emirates’ services continues to gather pace on its global route network that spans over 120 destinations in 74 countries. Just last year, Emirates increased the frequency of flights on the Singapore-Dubai with seven additional weekly flights, bringing the total number of flights out of Singapore to 28 – the most number of direct Singapore-Dubai flights offered by any airline.

ANA To Order Additional Eleven Boeing 787s

ANA Group, Japans largest airline group, today announces that it is placing orders for eleven additional Boeing 787 Dreamliner aircraft. ANA currently has 55 Dreamliners on order, thirteen of which have so far been delivered, and the new order today will take ANAs fleet of this innovative and fuel-efficient airliner to 66 in total. All eleven aircraft will be the B787-9 model and will be delivered between fiscal year 2018 and 2021. This will give ANA a fleet of 36 B787-8 aircraft and 30 B787-9 versions.

ANAs future fleet plans involve the gradual replacement of the Boeing 767 and Boeing 777-200 with the 787. The fuel efficiency of the B787-9 is similar to that of the B787-8, while it has greater seat, helping support the profitable expansion of ANAs international and domestic route networks.

ANA is the launch customer for the Dreamliner and started its first 787 operation in October last year. The aircraft is now flying eight domestic Japanese routes as well as Haneda Frankfurt. ANA also plans to launch a new route from Narita to San Jose on the US West Coast starting January next year using the 787, while the current Narita Seattle service will switch to 787 operations from October 1, and Haneda Beijing to the 787 from October 28.

ANA Press release

When It Was Cold Again

I find myself lost in the mist of cold breeze. The fog was thick yet it was warming. I don't know it was just me or it's just I am blocking all the emotions. Sometimes, I really suck at just hiding myself. As much as I wanna deny this, but it is so hard to forget.

I really wish I could jus forget about what we had in the past. It really meant so much that sometimes it is so hard to breath. I'm caught within the temptations of my past. I wanted to let everything go at the moment. But it isn't really possible.

Sitting where we were, I couldn't help but just smile at the memory we once had. It isn't a sad thing at all. I don't know why but it isn't at all. The emotions that twirl inside is isn't sorrow neither the other way round. Weird right? I wish I could tell why. But anyhow, I am feeling this weird mixture for sure.

But saying that, there is a thing that is really disturbing me. My mom. I don't know why but there is a really strong emotions. It is like I didn't really had a chance to. I have to lie that imma feeling exactly fine. I really couldn't bare that exact emotion that will portray in her face. I wish things would be easier. I really do wish it was.

For a beauty that we breath in everyday, the luxurious of able to feel, I am kinda thankful to that beauty of life. It is exactly how I wanna live. Maybe this isn't a choice that everyone would choose but definitely I would. I'm thankful, I'm grateful, i know I'm being loved. Everything will be left beautifully but regrets.

The Truth About Love

What about love? The truth about love. I couldn't believe how many times I have been looping her whole album the whole morning. She really take her music to a whole new level. To be honest, it is unbelievably good. It isn't just another usual pop rock album with some songs with inner meanings. But on the whole, this is such a great production. She does remind me of a younger Linda Perry. 

Like what the title of the album. This whole album is all about love. The truth of it. Not in one particular way but in general. In any way we can find. From being a slut to a broken heart girl to a strong person saying goodbye to an old memory. Celebrating what makes the world goes round - LOVE.

I know she is from RCA too but I am not writing this to promote on behalf of the company. But I wanted to share this great production with my readers. On the whole, she really did a great job on this album. My favorite picks? I really love Beam Me Up. She really puts her soul into this record. You could really feel what she wanted to tell us from her music. And I really love the opening song We Are All We Are. It's an upbeat song about being true to ourselves. It is a really great one. I couldn't have enough of her. 

Check her out, really. The album The Truth About Love is already available on iTunes. And on that note, I am hopeless yet again. I spent like USD 68 in just one day in iTunes. Anyhow, it is worth every single cent to get this album. Of all the albums I bought today, this is the one to beat. And seriously, I can't wait for Christina Aguilera's new album Lotus release in November. Another big shot to end this year with a high note. I bet the 2014 Grammys would be interesting. And I am anticipating big voices in the 2013 Grammys. I just couldn't wait. 

Autumn's Day

The beautiful autumn leaves starting to drop, and there I was, sitting there having my breakfast alone. Reflecting the changes of life and how we should live in the present and not planning too far ahead. The game has changed. I wish I could easily put down in words but Imma not quite ready just yet.

The English Breakfast that I use to enjoy tasted bitter. The cold breeze is torturous. I suppose it is when we move into another phase, everything doesn't really matter if you use to like them or anything. Maybe I was too naive, hoping for something that was that simple and direct. I have forgotten that these two little words couldn't possibly associate with me.

Life is beautiful in its own way. Whenever you think it will zig, it zag. The way of life makes it interesting. Up for it or not, it is something we got no power on stopping it but we do have the will to live it. Like it or not, it isn't a choice. I'm not gonna make myself sounded negative in it. Wanting to go on is not a choice but a must to me. The freedom is the ultimate goal. Without any obstacle, this isn't life I suppose. What makes us an individual, is how we take everything one step at a time.

I'm feeling a little dehydrated. My tiredness comes in, but looking at the faces around me, it is never a word I could use to describe how much I am being loved. They are my motivation, they are my gravity, they are my family. I wouldn't be that selfish to just let them down after all, it's been years now. What is wrong with a few more years to keep fighting on? Just like every autumn, leaves will drop, the cold winds comes, getting ready for winter. And after all these, spring is just right at the corner, waiting to jus welcome summer with its glorious warmth. And the cycle will jus continues. No way to alter, no way to change the way nature is. That is a truth that will never change.

Adorn with the garland of giving,
Feeling joy and dignity with kind living
Dwell only in states of clarity
Great beauty results with integrity.

Adorn with fragrance of victorious activities
For other a care and sensitivity
Dwell only in a state of contentment
A heart removed of the thorns of resentment.

Adorn with the sweetness of tranquility
Soft rapture from a life of simplicity
Dwell only in the state of calm peace
Mental turbulence and distraction all cease.

Dwell only in the state of peace and happiness
A mind of wise discernment and openness.

The three poison of wrong view, conceit and craving
No longer hinder or cause inner tightening
Vow deeply to develop the true way
Adorned in the heart then freedom will lay.

The Great Escape

I can understand how the ages are rough
And they cut you like the tiny slivers of glass
And you feel too much
And you don’t know how long you’re gonna last,
But everyone you know, is tryin’a smooth it over,
Find a way to make the hurt go away,
But everyone you know, is tryin’a smooth it over,
Like you’re trying to scream underwater,

But, I won’t let you make the great escape,
I’m never gonna watch you checkin out of this place
I’m not gonna lose you
Cause the passion and pain
Are gonna keep you alive someday
Gonna keep you alive someday

I feel like I could wave my fist infront of your face
And you wouldn’t flinch or even feel a thing
And you retreated to your silent corner
Like you decided the fight was over for ya,
Everyone you know, is tryin’a smooth it over,
Find a way to make the hurt go away,
Everyone you know, is tryin’a smooth it over,
Everyone needs a floor they can fall through

I won’t let you make the great escape,
I’m never gonna watch you checkin outta this place
I’m not gonna lose you
Cause the passion and pain
Are gonna keep you alive someday
They’re gonna keep you alive someday

Oh, Terrified of the dark, but not if you go with me
And I don’t need a pill to make me know
And I wrote the book already,
But that chapter of my life will soon be done

I’m the king of the great escape
You’re not gonna watch me checkin outta this place
You’re not gonna lose me
Cause the passion and pain
Are gonna keep us alive, someday
Yeah the passion and the pain
Are gonna keep us alive someday, someday

When I first heard this song, all was in my mind was just you. I couldn't really help that when the emotions stirs up. But what are we to say. After all, we are just human. In many ways, I know the pain you are going through is unbearable. But all you gotta know, you got a friend here for you. You are the best thing that ever happen to me. You are like a family, a friend. Many many ways, I wanted to thank you in many ways but you always say : Oh shut up already.

Sometimes, I suppose that what a friend could make a difference in one's life. I know you did. In so many ways, you showed me how I could really lived up my life to. Even to some extend I never dreamed of living in. I am just thankful as I am now. You showed me the way of living when I wasn't living. So, don't give up living no matter how hard! Cuz a life without a friend like you really sucks! You know who you are buddy! 

Oysterific!

Singapore Airlines Launches US$50 Million In-Flight Connectivity Programme

Singapore Airlines operations at Singapore Changi.

Singapore Airlines is today formally launching In-Flight Connectivity as part of a US$50 million programme to bring Internet and mobile data services to customers, even when flying at 35,000ft.

Following a recent soft launch on a limited number of aircraft, In-Flight Connectivity is today available on 14 aircraft in the fleet, including all five Airbus A340-500s which are deployed on the world’s longest non-stop flights, between Singapore and both Newark and Los Angeles. Services have also been extended to more markets such as Australia, for which regulatory approvals had not previously been obtained.

Travellers can surf the Internet, send and receive emails on smartphones and other electronic devices, and send and receive SMS text messages with GSM-compatible mobile phones.

Through a partnership with leading connectivity provider OnAir, the technology will be progressively rolled out across all of SIA’s long-haul Airbus A380-800, A340-500 and Boeing 777-300ER aircraft over the next two years.

Services are offered on routes on which equipped aircraft are deployed, subject to regulatory approvals from individual countries. A map highlighting availability when flying over specific countries is published in the Airline’s KrisWorld in-flight entertainment magazine.

Promotional price plans are also being introduced from today for wireless Internet access. The promotional prices, which will last until 30 November 2012, are US$25 for 30 megabytes of data and US$10 for 10 megabytes of data. The previous plans cost US$29.95 for 26 megabytes and US$11.95 for 10 megabytes.

A joint promotion with SingTel also enables SingTel Mobile subscribers to enjoy discounted roaming rates of up to 40% for in-flight text messaging and GPRS data services, as well as up to 20% for incoming and outgoing voice calls. The discounted roaming rates are displayed on SingTel’s corporate website and the joint promotion will last until 31 March 2013. For more information, please visit www.singtel.com/dataroam.

“As our customers’ preferences towards entertainment and connectivity options change over time, so must we. Mobile and Internet connectivity capabilities are just the start, enabling our customers to stay connected even when flying at 35,000ft. There will be much more investment in the months and years ahead to keep our customers both connected and entertained,” said SIA’s Senior Vice President Product & Services, Mr Tan Pee Teck.

“We have always been a leader in embracing technology and are confident that these initiatives will both meet and exceed our customers’ high expectations, keeping us at the forefront of airline product innovation.”

In addition to the US$50 million investment in In-Flight Connectivity services, work is underway to bring the next generation of in-flight entertainment offerings to our customers. This will include the latest hardware systems with new screen and handset technology, in addition to much more video and audio content. Details are expected to be announced in the coming weeks.

Malaysian Stupidity Again!

I actually don't feel that offended anymore. Maybe I guess that I have seen how stupid they could get. I actually pity them more than feeling that they are actually against the LGBT society. I don't pity them in their stupidity but I do in their lack of understanding.

What is really sad to see what damage they did to themselves. If they even realize they have made one of the greatest joke on earth. With the latest post by a University lecturer statement. What really made him look bad is how could a person with such high education status make such a statement. And this reflect how the country's education status is. As an educator, whatever statement made reflects the whole system. It is just sad to see that.

The link below is the statement he had made. The Stupidity Continues with Associate Professor Dr Samsul Adabi Mamat of UKM - University Kebangsaan Malaysia says these people should migrate to the West if they want to continue their lifestyle. I actually wonder do they really know what is the definition of sexual orientation. It has been a laughing stock around the globe. I couldn't really blame dad now whenever he says our education level is beyond repaired. I kinda get it now.

I lived in the west half of my life. Do they really think LGBT are widely accepted in the west? And do they think that the few places in the west that accepted LGBT comes just like that? LGBT are branded since their awakening. That is the way of life would be in this world for us. Do we care? Yes we do. But is there any other way? Besides keep on educating people to understand what we are is what we can do.

But looking on the bright side, it is another way for us to be stronger. At one point in the past, I remembered I recorded a piano demo last year March on my soundcloud. I just shared this song with one of my close friend Shinigami. It was just a simple tune that is filled with what I wanna expressed. But until Adam took this and gave life to it. Sharing this song with you guys on the playlist here. The lyrics that Adam did is just superb.

Everywhere we go
I'm lookin' for the sun.
Nowhere to grow old.
and always on the run.
They say we'll rot in hell
but i don't think we will
They've branded us enough
Outlaws of love.

The message he wanted to bring through the song is so strong. The lyrics made it alive. Listening to the whole song carefully. And they way Adam made it. Feel his heart while conveying that message through music. I never listen to anything that haunting and beautiful. Like ever. Thanks to the magic touch of Benny Blanco the producer to make it so beautiful.That is the way of life everywhere for LGBT. Why do you really think till now it is so hard for them to come out to their parents? Why is it so hard for them to be themselves in the eyes of public. This is happening everywhere. East, West, North and South. But we are striving every single minute in our life. We can't change they way what people think of us. What we can do is try to make them understand that sexual orientation isn't a choice. It is how the human gene creates us. It isn't a lifestyle like what that professor said it is. We are being bullied everywhere in the world. We are being labeled. But does this mean it is ok that we are born to be bullied? Born to live this life? But we survived. If they could just understood what are the pressure that we have been living through life. We are nothing but the same as they are.

They may think the west are more encouraging in terms of accepting LGBT. But this is not something that comes over night. The society fought through hard times. Till today, it is still not easy for LGBT to be accepted in the west. Everyday on the news, you can find how LGBT is being treated all around the world. It is not something that by saying that the country isn't accepting such culture. I emphasis this again. Being gay
 isn't a culture or a lifestyle. We are born this way. And by saying this, I am not implementing Lady Gaga's influence by her music culture. We are the way we are.

No matter how life could possibly be, this is not a culture we choose to be. This is not a lifestyle we wanted and we are not born just to be stronger than anyone else so we could still be standing after being bullied. No one does. But why do we live through this? Because of love. The love that brings us into this world. Even if it isn't so, the love we have for life. That we keep on breathing after all the crap is being thrown at us. And this is something worth celebrating. I do really wish that instead of letting this comedy keep going in the eyes of the world, please do care about the society. The social illness around us, unwanted pregnancy. The education system in the country. The crime rate and the homeless around us. All those issue are in dire need of attention. Instead of keep letting the joke rolling on why not do something worth while to the society.

Life Is Art

The moral life of man forms part of the subject-matter of the artist, but the morality of art consists in the perfect use of an imperfect medium.

No artist desires to prove anything.
Even things that are true can be proved.

No artist has ethical sympathies.

An ethical sympathy in an artist is an unpardonable mannerism of style.

No artist is ever morbid.

The artist can express everything.

Thought and language are to the artist instruments of an art.

Vice and virtue are to the artist materials for an art.

From the point of view of form, the type of all the arts is the art of the musician.

From the point of view of feeling, the musician's craft is the type.

All art is at once surface and symbol.

Those who go beneath the surface do so at their peril.

Those who read the symbol do so at their peril.

It is the spectator, and not life, that art really mirrors.

Diversity of opinion about a work of art shows that the work is new, complex, and vital.

Love is one of the greatest affectionate that art could express

By say, artist stripped off their cloths, being naked, with their souls.

Wanting to share or to immortalize that love they have

But so their peril, their vulnerability, their naked souls

With just the name of love.

I'm Back!

It feels really good to be back home. Back to a place where I feel free to expressed again. XD

Anyhow, I will still be spending a lot of time resting and rehabilitating at the moment. There are changes in my  daily life from now. Things aren't been what is has to but Imma gonna take it one day at a time. For these few days, I will be posting a few post while I was in the ward.

Wrote a few and will start posting it one by one. But what really matters is just how I wanted to take life from now I suppose. In many ways, it wasn't easy to go through from here but there isn't a choice for me to choose. The only thing I could keep in mind is just living my life the way I wanted and keep going on.

Like what I always say, "When life gives you Lemons, We make lemonade from it."

And by the way, Imma loving Barbra Striesand's New York State Of Mind covered by Lea Michele and Melissa Benoist. No idea why, loving the way they both did it. Perfectly beautiful. :)

Honestly, I miss blogging a lot. Just a perfect place for me to be who I am without being able to be anyone wanted me to be. Weak or even vulnerable, I have no fear of being judge or even being misunderstood. Just like a little sanctuary for me besides the studio.

And after been away for so long, The best is there are loads of blogs for me to read! Can't wait to keep myself updated with the other fellow bloggers. :)

Last Post For Now

This will be my last post here. Tomorrow will be judgement day for me. Anyhow, just don't wanna have that stupid MOE post to be my last. Gonna miss all of you here to be honest. Hopefully if everything goes well,I will be back by next Wednesday.

Hope everything is well. Particularly missing few people and not gonna mention. Not making this another stupid crap post.

Which I realize is already one. LOO.. Gonna grab early dinner and get ready for tomorrow. Can't wait to be back. Fingers crossed.

Guidelines To Identify Gays & Lesbian By MOE Malaysia Utterly Offensive & Stupid

Ok, don't ask me not to take this personally cause it is really personal! I am just being disturb by the fact that all this crap that the Ministry Of Education Malaysia would come up with. According to this article these guidelines are to help identify the symptom early so it could be prevent. What the fuck is wrong with these people. Do they really understand the pressure that all LGBT (Lesbian Gay Bisexual and Transgender) are living in the society no matter which country they are in.

Sexual orientation isn't a choice. Since 1975, the American Psychological Association has called on psychologists to take the lead in removing the stigma of mental illness that has long been associated with lesbian, gay, and bisexual orientations. The discipline of psychology is concerned with the well-being of people and groups and therefore with threats to that well-being. The prejudice and discrimination that people who identify as lesbian, gay, or bisexual regularly experience have been shown to have negative psychological effects. This information is designed to provide accurate information for those who want to better understand sexual orientation and the impact of prejudice and discrimination on those who identify as lesbian, gay, or bisexual. Find out more here if any one wanna understand better.

Look at the world around us. I am not deferring this to just Malaysia. There are many who are suffering from the prejudice and discrimination towards LGBT. Simply the news for today. Junior college linebacker says he was dismissed because of his sexual orientation from North Dekota. A dream of a kid was crushed because he is gay. Is this really fair to him? What have he really done wrong? Parents performing exorcism on their son because he is gay in Lima Ohio. Does anyone knows their pain? Do we need another Eric James Borges Story?

It really hurts. I am lucky enough to have my parents to understand and accepting that sexual orientation isn't my choice. But the pain goes to others that never had that chance. At to read about this offensive statement kills me inside. I feel the helplessness I once had before I came out to my family. What exactly happen To Eric James Borges on my birthday. I wish everything would be easier but its not getting any better. Do the MOE knows about the seriously social illness is now in the country? About how dangerous STD and HIV are? Do they see how these illness has cause effect to those who had be suffering from it? What Sex Ed could be a big part to help preventing all these! My pain is with them.

Maybe I am just a mess now. I couldn't possibly think rationally after that statement. I know it is not worth for me to feel offended at all but I do. I take that personally. All these time when fighting for that change and there goes a brainless statement. They are causing this pain towards the LGBT and causing all the negative perception towards the society.Being gay is hard enough. How about the transgender around us? Do we even think of what may cause to them? Especially in their transitioning period, support is vital to them. Just wish all of these would just stop right here.

But for saying this, I have to give credits to the state of California for taking the first step towards Ban Sexual Orientation Efforts For Youth. It gives us hope. At least it is a start of a change. Yes, it may look hopeless yet for now in Malaysia. But it is not the end. As long as we keep on striving towards this. One day people will understand. Being gay isn't a choice. It is not a sickness. We are as normal as everyone else. 2 out of 10 people in this world is gay. And there isn't a way at all for that to change. This is how nature works. We are suffering too.

But who to understand us? If you find you have been settling with a world of grey, so you wouldn't have to face down your own hate? When that trigger the ultimatum, will another family be happy for losing another beautiful child they created? Everyone has that edge to jump off the cliff. Why not make a change and understand this issue better than just find a cure that worsen the situation.

I guess this is just the way for people who doesn't understands at all. Its a life long fight. But I will not stop just here.

Being gay is a crime? Does love needs a gender to make it right?

Christina Aguilera's New Album Title Lotus

Christina Aguilera‘s just-wrapped Twitter Q&A revealed a boatload of details surrounding her highly-anticipated new album, including its title, release month, and first single’s smoking hot cover art.

Xtina is titling her new set Lotus. Why? She explains, “Lotus. Representing an unbreakable flower that survives under the hardest conditions and still thrives.”
As for what Lotus will sound like, Xtina says, “Conceptually I didn’t target one particular sound/genre. I made music that felt good.”

Lotus’ first single, the sexy “Your Body,” has already hit the internet in varying degrees of completion, but its official premiere will be this Friday, September 14, at radio and September 17 on iTunes, Xtina revealed. She also unveiled the track’s sizzling single cover, which features Xtina’s bodacious curves on full display. See it here.

A preview of the music video for “Your Body” will premiere on Monday’s episode of Xtina’s night job, The Voice.

Lotus, which is the follow-up to 2010′s Bionic, will be released in November.

Tell Him

I'm scared.
So afraid to show I careWill he think me weak
If I tremble when I speak
what if
There's another one he's thinking of
Maybe he's in love
I'd feel like a fool
Life can be so cruel
I don't know what to do

I've been there
With my heart out in my hand
But what you must understand
You can't let the chance
To love him pass you by

Tell him
Tell him that the sun and moon
Rise in his eyes
Reach out to him
And whisper
Tender words so soft and sweet
I'll hold him close to feel his heart beat
Love will be the gift you give yourself

Touch him
With the gentleness you feel inside(I feel it)
Your love can't be denied
The truth will set you free
You'll have what's meant to be
All in time you'll see

I love him(then show him)
Of that much I can be sure(hold him close to you)
I don't think I could endure
If I let him walk away
When I have so much to say

Tell him
Tell him that the sun and moon
Rise in his eyes
Reach out to him
And whisper
Tender words so soft and sweet
Hold him close to feel his heart beat
Love will be the gift you give yourself

Love is light that surely glows
In the hearts of those who know
It's a steady flame that grows (oh ooh oh oh)
Feed the fire with all the passion you can show
Tonight love will assume its place
This memory time cannot erase
Your faith will lead love where it has to go

Tell him
Tell him that the sun and moon
Rise in his eyes
Reach out to him
And whisper
Whisper words so soft and sweet
Hold him close to feel his heart beat
Love will be the gift you give yourself
Never let him go

To a memory. To a future. To a love that is lost. To a fallen angel. To a dream.

2 More Days

2 more days and I will be away for some time. I really tried to keep myself positive. Everything was going well till daddy came to me. Once he finished what he wanted to say, my tears just kept flowing. I really wanted to tell him that all is gonna be alright. But he just shut me up. Told me to say nothing at all. And come what may.

I feel the whole world collapse in and I knew the love from them were so strong. I just couldn't stop thinking about everything he said. It was just beautiful. I really tried not to cry but I just couldn't hold it in. Daddy, I just wanted to say I really love you very much. Without you, I am just nothing at all.

Sept 11th is a scar to my family. But we pull it through. We all knew that this is what best for us. Isiah won't want us to mourned for him. I wouldn't say we did a great job. But we manage. I was holding back not to write anything at all here yesterday. We didn't really talk but in our eyes, we knew that it still hurt even after 11 years now. But nothing would stop us from giving our all to live the life he never had. We just miss you a lot Isiah. Especially mommy. I know she does every single day.

Just 2 more days, I really wish it is easy for me to go through it now. I am not afraid, but I am just feeling numb. I remember the moment that Baby J once told me, you have to hold on to yourself. That is the only way you would pull through anything. I am trying just to feel as neutral as possible at the moment. I really wanted is all of these are over.

I wanted to take that mask down. But I got no idea how. Maybe it is just a defense mechanism. Defending myself from failing. I wish sometimes word could describe the pressure was on me. But there are non that fits. Just trying to pull it through everyday.

11th Year In Memory - Sept 11

Another 9 hours it will marked the anniversary for the September 11 attacks. Thinking about all the family who suffered lost of their family members. The World Trade Centers, Pentagon and American Airlines Flight 93. Remembered the point where all of us in class watching what happened. It doesn't make me feel better even my family are in Malaysia. I was 4 hours drive away from New York City that year. But that helplessness in me watching what happen.

Its been 11 years, but people still feel the pain for everything that had happen. Listening to kids who grew up with their lost. I feel the pain in their voices. It really isn't easy to just hear them. Even the idea of them having to grow up without that shadow to hold them. This date doesn't only mark a dark place for the Americans but also for all humanity.

Maybe not everyone really feel the effect. But I really couldn't help it. I really got no idea at all if I were them. Or I was one of the victim. How would my family be able to handle this. Even up to today, the whole family still misses Isiah so much even we don't talk about it. I can see in mom's eyes sometimes when we somehow mention about him. That emotions lingers on all these while.

Today we bury his body, but not his spirit. We bury his hands but not his good works. We bury his heart, but not his love.

Maybe I am just being me. I really wish there is something that we could do to lift up those who suffers. It isn't a life to grow up in but there aren't options to choose.

AirAsia To Become First Airbus A320 ‘Sharklets’ Operator

Airbus and the world’s largest A320 customer AirAsia announced that the airline will become the first operator of the A320 with ‘Sharklets’ when they take delivery of the first A320 equipped with these fuel-saving wing-tip devices at the end of this year. The aircraft exhibited on static and flying display at the ILA Berlin Air Show is the flight test aircraft for CFM engines and will also be delivered to AirAsia in 2013.

"The A320 has played a key role in our success, enabling us to offer our passengers the lowest fares possible and completely redefine short haul travel in Asia.” said Tony Fernandes, AirAsia Group CEO. “Now we are looking forward to become the first airline in the world to start operating this most fuel-efficient aircraft.”

“AirAsia is one of the fastest growing, most innovative and well-respected brands in the airline industry” said John Leahy, Airbus Chief Operating Officer, Customers. “It is a great endorsement that they have chosen our latest, fuel-saving aircraft of our successful A320 Family”.

Airbus comes to this week’s ILA Berlin Air Show with a positive outlook for the future, anticipating another solid year of sales in 2012 and benefitting from the advantages of its jetliner product line evolution to maintain the company’s leadership.

Airbus is positioned to sustain its competitive edge in the single-aisle jetliner category, building on the unprecedented airline industry response to its A320neo (new engine option) product line launched 18 months ago, along with continuing popularity of the A320ceo (current engine option) aircraft.

The widebody twin-engine A330 also is expected to draw new orders, while the A350 XWB is well positioned as Airbus’ next-generation entry in this market – and strongly competitive with other aircraft in the same segment, he added.

For the very large aircraft category, Airbus’ A380 remains “the aircraft of the future,” Brégier concluded, providing a highly efficient and eco-friendly jetliner for growing passenger volume as global air traffic once again is expected to double during the next 15 years.

In Memory of Sept 11

Today's remembrance of the September 11, 2001 attacks is centered on the World Trade Center site and the newly dedicated Memorial, two pools which occupy the footprints of the Twin Towers. As I type this, the reading of the victims' names is wrapping up at this location. Yet this memorial is just one (and easily the most expensive) of many memorials dedicated to those events eleven years ago. Below is a sampling of the more significant permanent memorials, from most recent to earliest in terms of their dedication dates.

As can be seen from these photos, abstraction is a common trait of these (and most contemporary) memorials. Yet most shy away from a literal relationship to the Twin Towers, opting to express loss as void, create direct visual relationships between the memorial and the site of disaster, and evoke emotions through the names of the lost ones rather than figural forms. Please comment if I missed one that deserves inclusion here, and I'll add it.

Robert Peraza, who lost his son Robert David Peraza, pauses at his son's name at the North Pool of the 9/11 Memorial during the 11th anniversary ceremonies at the site of the World Trade Center on Sept. 11, 2011.

Former U.S. President George W. Bush and President Barack Obama visit the North Memorial Pond as they arrive for a commemoration ceremony on the 11th anniversary of the 9/11 attacks at the National Sept. 11 Memorial, in New York City.