This Love

Clear blue water, high tide came and brought you in

And I could go, on and on, on and on, and I will 

Skies grew darker, currents swept you out again

And you were just gone and gone, gone and gone

In silent screams, in wildest dreams

I never dreamed of this

Tossing, turning, struggle through the night with someone new

And I could go on and on, on and on

Lantern, burning, flickered in my mind for only you

But you're still gone, gone, gone

Been losing grip, oh, sinking ships

You showed up just in time

Your kiss, my cheek, unwashed, you leave

Your smile, my ghost, I fell to my knees

When you're young you just run

But you come back to what you need

This love is good, this love is bad

This love is alive back from the dead

These hands had to let it go free

And this love came back to me

This love left a permanent mark

This love is growing in the dark

These hands had to let it go free

And this love came back to me

This love, this love, this love, this love...

A beautiful beginning, with one beautiful person among the million walks of life. For everything that starts, there will be one that will end. For one reason that I want it to be real. What are the good, and what are the bad? Are those permanent, or it is just a passerby?

Loving you isn't the hardest thing I have to decide in my life. Letting you be is. If no one ever asked me again about us, I’d be okay. It’s like stepping out of the haze and getting pushed right back in. I know you had the best intentions, but why’d you have to go and mention him?

It’s just like salt poured on a wound. Every word keeps cuttin’ through. Please say something stupid, something distracting or leave it alone and don’t say anything.

Every shadow passing me by, I imagine his outline and when I go to reach for his hand, I think I'll lose my mind. I’m already haunted inside. I don’t need to be reminded. I just wanted to be near you. No one know how much I missed you, I just wanted to be there. I know I wasn't right, but I can't stop all this emotions that is flowing towards you. 

I wanted to scream at the world, I wanted to billions around me to witness how much you meant to me. I want them to know my words aren't just words. I wanted to give everything and just be. But is this just too surreal? Would it survive? Or I should just run away and hide?

In silent screams, in wildest dreams, I never dream of this.