Gone Too Soon

Listening to this song bring tears to me. I was doing some work and digging into the library for reference. After listening to this song, I kinda knew that knowing what others does won't really help me much. I need to find that part of me which I need to be with now. Why this song would touched others? It is a relatively easy to answer. It is a very honest song by a father's heart. For those who have lost their child. 

Immediately it struck me that I need to keep on breathing no matter what or how my condition is at this present moment. It is pure grief of a father from the tune. I put it back on my parents and I knew nothing could describe from that pain that they will have to go through. Not a day goes by that I don't think of you. The words are just piercingly painful.

Today is my fifth dosage here. There are so much going on within. I wanted to reach out but somehow, it just didn't really happen. I lie here in the ward thinking to myself. What if... what if... what if... But it never ends. I wish I could possible pour out everything here. But I just somehow couldn't. I felt that everything is gone. There isn't a space I could just be me. I feel trapped. Helpless. 

Maybe like my younger brother told me. Use this as an inspiration to write my m usic. I couldn't possible tap into the other emotion at the moment. Might as well as make use of this trapped "me" and utilize it. Yeah.. Maybe he is right. But for now, I just wish this dosage is over. Luckily Blogger has their own app. The only for me to let this part of me go freely. I wish everything would be how it was. Leaving behind that a past I couldn't possibly change. Looking around and tell me what you see? Everything, everything but me.

Today could've been the day
That you blow out your candles
Make a wish as you close your eyes
Today could've been the day
Everybody was laughin'
Instead I just sit here and cry
Who would you be?
What would you look like
When you looked at me for the very first time?
Today could've been the next day of the rest of your life

Not a day goes by that I don't think of you
I'm always asking why this crazy world had to lose
Such a ray of light we never knew
Gone too soon

Would you have been president?
Or a painter, an author or sing like your mother
One thing is evident
Would've given all I had

Would've loved ya like no other
Who would you be?
What would you look like?
Would you have my smile and her eyes?
Today could've been the next day of the rest of your life

Not a day goes by that I don't think of you
I'm always asking why this crazy world had to lose
Such a ray of light we never knew
Gone too soon

Not a day goes by,
I'm always asking why,

Not a day goes by that I don't think of you
I'm always asking why this crazy world had to lose
Such a beautiful life we never knew
Gone too soon
You were gone too soon

And not a day goes by
That I don't think of you