Slow Dancing In A Burning Room

It's not a silly little moment
It's not the storm before the calm
This is the deep and dying breath of
This love we've been working on

Can't seem to hold you like I want to
So I can feel you in my arms
Nobody's gonna come and save you
We pulled too many false alarms

We're going down
And you can see it too
We're going down
And you know that we're doomed
My dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room

I was the one you always dreamed of
You were the one I tried to draw
How dare you say it's nothing to me
Baby, you're the only light I ever saw

I'll make the most of all the sadness
You'll be a bitch because you can
You try to hit me just to hurt me
So you leave me feeling dirty
Because you can't understand

We're going down
And you can see it too
We're going down
And you know that we're doomed
My dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room

Go cry about it, why don't you?
My dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room

Don't you think we oughta know by now?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?

Lying here in this familiar yet strange room. And getting myself ready for the worst that is coming. In 3 days time, a history will be relived. Am I ready to face it yet again? I am not sure. I was never sure when it comes back to you. Till this very day, I still am missing you very much baby. You were the only one I would call baby and meant it by heart. In sure time, it will become easier year by year for me to face this. 

It will mark 3 years now without you in my life. Yes, especially now, I am thinking how are you doing now. I wish all the best in life with whatever and whoever will be there by your side.Repeating this song on my iTunes, it really makes me feel grateful that our path crossed. I remembered clearly how we both celebrate your birthday 3 years ago. I thought that time would really heal everything. Yes it did but your memory are still fresh. And I was silly and did stupid things that made me realize how to love. Yet I am thankful without you, I will never learned to be who I am today.

Yes baby, I still miss you very much everyday in my life. Even I don't talk about it any more but you have sowed the seeds deep down within. The memory that you cried out that I have dug a hollow on your chest at that moment you needed me. But we both moved on. I am living with that guilt and fear that I would ever do that to the person I love now. You were right baby, when I was with you, I only love myself and I didn't cared about what you felt till I lost everything. 

But it was a past, a past that brought me the present. This is the only song that made me realize when the moment both souls aren't inter-wind, the love will never grow no matter what we both do. It was really that we both know. Like how the lyrics says, 

My dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room