
Being bald now isn't really a new thing to me. But to be able to put myself out there, it's just another story. I realize that on my Facebook or even Twitter, I never really posted how I look after treatment. I would be lying again if I say I don't know. The fact is being a CA patient is one thing, but to put yourself out there like that would be another story. I know it has been a long time now, but yet, I am still taking baby steps. I know that the overwhelming support and love were given to me, and I do really appreciate that. But at times, the ones that I do wish it was from will never be there. Instead, judgement, pity, or even the most hilarious reasons you can think of will just arise.
I know I am just being paranoid or something, but all these emotions are just too overwhelming for me to digest right now. Or I would say, I don't wanna accept it at this very moment I guess. But I have to say, the support from my love one and my besties are just the source that I needed right now. They just know how to put that big smile on my face and stop thinking of things that I shouldn't even be thinking of in the first place. And thank you Dumdum for flying in to just get me through this. I wouldn't even know what I could be if you weren't here to remind me that it's just okay, not to be okay.
I came across this very meaningful quote today.
You only live once, but if you do it right, once is enough.
Mae West
I guess with everything I learn in these years, everything just made sense. And there is one person out there I really have to thank, Baby J. Without everything I have been through, I would never really know what loving is all about. Thank you for letting me grow.
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