Post Sri Lanka, India & Nepal Trip

Ok, I will die if I don't get this done by today. I know the more I delay this, I will never get it done. So, how does my journey really goes? Actually, it was on a positive note excluding all the public peeing and pooping by the people over there. Somehow I just wonder what makes India this way? It is a beautiful country on the whole. Sri Lanka and Nepal is in the other league.

Seemingly being the second largest population in the world and being a democratic country really doesn't does justice to the people. From what I think. I spend most of my trip in the state of Uttar Pradesh. The poorest state in all India. And also it is a state of the opposition. The only thing in my mind every time the guide told us about their highways and infrastructures was "I'm sure the guide haven't been to Malaysia before." I am living in the smallest state in Malaysia way up north. A Kampung (Village in english) actually and we have better roads and all. But it was an experience.

The weather is really crazy going there during December. The dip from the highest to the lowest temperature was too drastic and that really create the freezing pain. In the afternoon, it is around 23-24 degrees and within an hour, it will drop to 3-4 degrees and later on to 1 degrees in the night. It is totally different from the usual cold weather we have in the states or even in UK. It is cold but the differences weren't that bad. And that gives our body to get use to it.

The train ride was pretty ok to be honest. But the delays makes it really bad. Maybe it was the fog. All these few months in the cold, fog is not something uncommon. The visibility could drop as low as 5 meters. It was suppose to be a 6 hour ride. But end up, it was a 13 hour long to get to Lucknow from Delhi. Talk about trains for not being on time in Malaysia. I guess we are blessed in many ways.


But on the whole, it was amazing. When I was at Bodhgaya, Saranath, and even in Varanasi. Those places were breath taking. Nepal, was Lumbini and Phokhara. In Sri Lanka, I wish I had more time to explore. It gets dark early. So most of the time, travelling around could be taking up a lot of time. The whole trip in India, I was taking coach. That really took a lot of time. In total, I travelled 3400KM in India. and with the roads condition there, usually for 100 km, it takes 2 and a half hour to travel.

It was really very interesting and inspirational for me through out the trip. How amazing the emotion that is being felt. Places like The Great Nalanda University, Jethavana Grove, Vaishali and even Lumbini. It was just amazing. I posted most of the pictures on my Facebook profile. And also the Ganges river! That is one experience I will never forget. The whole Indian and Hindu culture. The life that lives among us. The cycle for the Hindus. It is really amazing. The only thing we couldn't do was to take pictures where the departed were cremated. It was really something I will never forget.

Here are some pictures to share with all of you. Could visit my Facebook profile if you wanna see more of it. India is really one country that is so rich! Rich with cultures and the religions that begin there. Hinduism, Sikhism, Jainism and Buddhism. What a beautiful place to be and to learn. From the earliest civilization till the evolution of human kind.

 

Celibacy Fulfilled

Sometime ago in 2011, I took a celibacy vow for myself. Reasons - I actually asked myself why sometimes. Still no idea why did I actually do it. But hey, Kinda proud of what I have actually refrain myself from for a whole year. One year and 12 days to be exact.

For all the wrong reasons, I guess things happen too fast and too soon in many ways. I did mention about this fella I met in Sri Lanka. Jeremy. Just on a really bored Sunday today, I just decided to share some details about that encounter.

I guess for what it is worth, I still am attracted to that beautiful eyes he had. I guess that was the thing that seal the deal. Some how the whole night, after 2 bottles of bubbles, I wasn't really tipsy at all. No idea why. The thing about what we had was that drinking session. The things he had in mind that he wanted to fulfill before the age of 30. He is 26 by the way. That passion he had for his life. I really admire that a lot.

But one thing about that encounter was sex wasn't on our mind at all. Ok, maybe him. I was totally attracted to that smile and eyes. But the thing was no one really initiate it. It sorta just happen. I still question in many ways that a hot fella like him would actually get into bed with a person like me. Still sorting that part out.

So, we were at the Caterman Beach Hotel that night. So after dinner, we both were sitting on the beach drinking and talking. It was around 3am in the morning and I gotta like wake up at 8am. So I just kinda told him I am heading back to my room. And he suddenly just  ask me.

"Aren't you gonna invite me to your room?"

I was stunned and I just got no idea how to react. I was like in silence for at least 30 seconds. And he laugh and ask me to relax. I didn't wanted to sound like I was making excuses not to invite him over but the thing is I was staying in the same room with my little brother. He smile back and just told me he got a room upstairs and all by himself as his rommie's flight won't be arriving till the morning. Delayed by the fog in Delhi. I just didn't say a word and straighten out my hand to him. He grab it and we walked back to the room.

When he showed me his room. I nearly faint. It was like 3 times bigger than mine. I was actually checking out his room once I was there. And he asked me again if I were happier to check the room out or him. He was so charming. I just couldn't resist that charm in him. He was closing the door behind him. I just walked up to him, kinda like standing real close to him. Feeling his breathe near mine. I could feel his heart pumping like mad. And I just lean over as I let our body react naturally.

His jet black hair were really soft, I couldn't stop rubbing through it when our lips met. His beautiful green eyes, and that unshaven face was an extra turn on for me. You know those white guys with that kinda look. I wasn't really thinking that much at that point. It seems like everything was just right. God knows how long we stood there kissing and undress each other. But it just felt so good.

The bed was just perfect. I move near to it while we were just in our underwear. His skin was so tender and soft. I can't really remember how long it was since I last touch a man. I laid him on his back, slowly moving down to his ear lob, neck and so on. I guess I found his "sensitive part". It was at his neck. Every time my tongue touches his neck, he let out that sexy moan that really turn me on. (I admit, I am always a loser when it comes to that kinda sensual moan by a man.) It was ecstatic! I felt that his other member was ready too. I could feel that was between our bodies. And he whisper in my ears. " I am ready, don't make me wait all night " I was laying on top of his body and his legs spread between me. It was just.... electrifying.

The moment I was in him, he let out another moan. All I could do was letting myself near him. Holding him closely. Feeling his heart beat, the heat of his body, his face and his moan. A Big Time weak spot for me. The more all this comes into the picture, the more I wanted to hold him close to me while our bodies does the magic. When I kissed him, the world around us doesn't seems matters. As we move in sync, it felt like both of us are erupting that inner energy from within. Every touch was surreal. As I felt his sweat on his body, I move a little faster. He seems to like it a lot. And while going at a faster pace, I kissed his neck and it felt like he was about to erupt. That spasm he was having. And all he whisper back was "don't stop" And I just let go and kept going on him. He didn't wanna changed the position and from his looks, I guess he was enjoying every trust going at him. I was near, he was a big reason that put me at the edge. I kept going till we both fell uninhibitedly breathless on each other.

I didn't know how long I was on top of him. Our bodies we wet. All I knew was non of us move till my member was soft and slipped outta him. But he didn't want me to go. He ask me to stay for the night. When I get up, I realize our bodies were fill with his jizz. I didn't even know he cummed. I reach out to the tissue box and he just shock his head and say lets jump in the shower. I pull out a tissue and get rid of my rubber. And nothing happen in the shower. Just small talks in the tub enjoying our company.

A pic for teaser. Something I couldn't help not taking. :P

To be honest, after so long, I couldn't really remember how was it really like being able to enjoy sex in this way. To know the person and really connect. We didn't even have any fore play and it was still good. As after that, I told him about my celibacy vow that I have taken. And he was smirking at me and say "luckily it didn't continue. If not, you wouldn't remember what great sex with him is all about." Hahah.. I kinda like that confident. He was still as charming but the playful side of him came out. It was a plus plus for me. I stayed on  for the night and we had another go in the morning before I kissed him goodbye.

The thing about this fling wasn't all about the sex. But made me realize that how sex was suppose to be enjoyable between two people. But still, nothing would come close of being with someone you really love and love you back. But it was the beginning of my trip. At that moment, I smile and told myself, Ricky, things will be better this year. And with everything after the trip. Somehow, being alive means way much more than words could describe. And what makes me wanna go on and what I wanted in life is just perfectly clear. All I need is just a little faith and patience. When it pays off, it is really worth it. 

To Begin With 2013

Initially I wanted this to be my last post of the year. But the crazy thing about it is the last few days was total hectic. A lot of traveling in the road, and there ain't Internet connection in the room. But I guess I would say that I'm celebrating New Year's Eve in flight. I know, it's bored, but a blissful way to celebrate with my family. (Which they are all sleeping like pigs on board)

Departing at Indira Ghandi International Airport at Indian time 18:50( which is about 9:20pm malaysia time.) somehow I was kinda looking at how time gone by just in a swift. I suppose how to sum up how my year has been is totally how I wanted to look at it.

Somehow India did really reflect many many aspects of how beautiful life could be. For instants, as we know India has its down side of it. People pee all around the city. They litter, they spit and they even shit on the the road sides. But that is somehow a fact we can't really change. Many will be like looking down on the ground and complaining about how dirty it was. But what they didn't realize was when they are actually looking down on the ground, there are so much they have missed. The beautiful natural landscapes, lush green trees, the layers effect that the fog creates.

Somehow, human will always be human. Somehow, what we wanna see in life is just a matter of choices. I know it is easier said than done. I too sometimes do that. But I couldn't deny what have I missed so far in life. I know it isn't easy to do so. Believe it or not, every time when I am on treatment, I lose it all the time. But this also couldn't be the excuse for me to use. At least not any more.

Guess when I land in KLIA, it will be a new beginning. 2012 has been kind to me. Keeping my fingers cross, 2013 will be even better. So I guess I will be needing a lot of time to put the whole trip in to summary soon.

Conclusion,

Ricky's Eat Love Pray journey :

Eat - checked!
Love - unchecked!
Pray - checked!

Goodbye 2012 and hello 2013!

Warmth In The Cold

As time goes by, the weather in India is getting colder and colder by the day. But after days without Internet connection, all warm messages from friends always warm my heart. One that really touched me was from Mr D. His Christmas wishes isn't anything fancy nor tacky. But what makes me feels great was what we had.

It was a good year for us so far. Our ups and down. It makes life way much easier for us. In many ways. But I just don't know why, it just helps a lot. Looking back, time just really flew and in between all of us, that bond was the thing that brought this warmth to me in this very cold night.

I haven't talked to my dearie Rainer so far since she got engaged. So much I wanna talk to her. I still haven't got the time to sit down and talk to her alone. I miss all those crazy beautiful days. But I know she has a real hectic schedule. She will be leaving for Melbourne and I'm gonna seriously miss her.

For what is worth, all these bond that I have with them are the only thing that hold me together. I got no idea why, today after visiting The Great Nalanda university, my emotions was all over the place. I wish I could hold it together but somehow, I soon isolate myself. Not in the mood to talk to anyone.

Just right until I read Mr D's Christmas wishes. It lifted my mood and things getting right. Ab long morning tomorrow. Just gonna get some sleep. Will be in Bohgaya for two days. So far, the journey is pretty amazing. Food are awesome and the people are lovely. Just somehow still missing the part which I am searching for. Weird thing is that it is only 8.45pm and I am sleepy already.

First 7 Days

Came to an end of the first 7 days here in South Asia. And my 4th day without Internet connection. The colour a of life gradually form on the canvas. With all that is going on, the word life is such a fragile thing. For what I came to look for the substantial meaning of the inner awakening. And also to walk down memory lane once again.

The temperature of the eastern part of India kept dropping but it was still bearable. Jeremy is now a small little memory. Yes, I'm not gonna deny that from time to time, I still come across these few hot tourist but the perspective has changed. I couldn't say I fully understood that meaning but I could now picture that life is one thing that is simply amazing in its on way.

The permanent thing in life is impermanence. Everything that is form will eventually breaks. Life is the way it is. Many times I blame myself for having a weak body that doesn't gets well. But in fact, I should see that the power of impermanence in life. Being able to live a day is a gift and living well in a promise to our creators. Well, that is what every creators want for their off springs. My parents are the ones I should be really thanking them. For this little story I heard in the village I went in Rajgil. A mother never measure the milk that she gave to her child. The love and protection given the baby that she bore. But. Once the bby are fully grown, the off springs has the choice to measure what was given to the mother.

What the story is trying to say was for how the mother is being treated, it is all in the power of the kids hand. Good or bad, that choice wasn't hers to call. But when she bore the baby, the choice she had in hand wasn't a choice. A motherly instinct. A heavenly care. I see mothers around here, working with her baby, feeding with doing her chores. I just didn't know why but tears just flows. At some point, I kinda understood hy am I still standing here right now. The battle I was fighting all these while seems to be worth it. I know that every breath I take now, brings the upmost joy to the woman who bore me.

Rajgil really did teach me a lot today. Lying here listening to my baby brother snoring somehow puts the smile on my face. Life is just simply amazing. Heading to bed now. Can't wait to be in Nalanda tomorrow.

Distinctive Reflection

From train to buses, after traveling approximately 500km from Lucknow, I am finally here in Nepal. This journey is indeed one inspiring and heart breaking at the same time. This never fail to happen even my last trip here in India. Poverty slaps you in the face, suffering is part of a daily event. Looking at them, I really kinda am ashamed of myself whenever I complaint about my own sickness and pain. While there here struggle daily just to make life bearable. I'm don't even dare to say comfortable.

The journey from Sarvasti to Lumbini. People around were in pain. Yet they strive on to make a meal for the day to their children. Even the children smiles while I was capturing their photo. But maybe ignorance is a way for them to have a shield childhood. Without education, without proper health care, they are all exposed to the cold truth of reality. The cast system till this very day is still very much intact. To me, I find it kinda barbaric.

From what I learned, the Indian government did provide schools, health care, lunches, electricity and water to 85% of the villages around here. Most of the kids here are the children of the farmers. The thing is that the farmers forbid their children to go to school. Instead, they lead a gypsy kinda life. A lot is going through my mind now but I couldn't possibly digest everything. A lot of why and why. But yet, I still can't stand in their shoes. The vast differences in our blessed life couldn't not one near to their living condition.

Heading to bed with a heavy heart. I tried to understand better with upmost empathy but all I could give was sympathy. Just wish to have a good rest before traveling to Rajgil via Vaisali.

13 Hours Later, 6 More To Go

The initial 6 hours train ride turned into 13 hour journey. Rumor has it that there was an accident on the other side. So instead of fully utilizing the whole 4 tracks, all lines sharing this direction are sharing 2. That was why we gotta travel 13 hours instead of the initial 6. But all was good to me.

Arriving at Lucknow at 7.29pm, got our luggage checked into the bus, it was dinner time. The first authentic Indian dinner. Surprisingly I actually love it. It was vegan but the taste of it was pretty good. Didn't spent much time, finished up and I was on the road again on the bus. 170km to Sarvasti. Guess that I was too tired I supposed, I really slept all the way to this small town. All I know the ride was bumpy but bearable. The next time I woke up, I was at the hotel at 2am.

The temperature is crazy. It is only 4 degrees right now. Clearly, I wasn't dressed for it. Taught me one little lesson. Weather is one thing that no one could possibly predict. And here I am writing this event less journey here.

Only have 5 hours to sleep and early morning tomorrow, I'm heading off to Lumbini in Nepal. There is something I wanna share about but my hands are freezing typing on my iPad. Guess I will do it another time. Gonna grab more rest while I can. A long day ahead for me.

Train Beauty

The fog was thick and here we are, heading to the train station. Heading down south east of Delhi, a city called Lucknow. It was only 9 degrees at 3.30 in the morning. I guess the only thing on my mind that time was that I am dead tired and sleepy. But still manage to pull myself up for it.

Arriving here at the station, it was quiet on the streets. But there was something that made this rail station interesting. Believe it or not, India is the largest in term of network in railway in the world. And New Delhi station is the heart of the northern region.

Train arrive at the station around 6 in the morning. Once on board, I was sleeping away. You think I get to sleep, dream on.. I was being awaken by the service attendant like 5 times in 4 hours time. So that is why I'm writing this, I give up on my sleep. Meal after meal was being serve and it really just made me realize why sleep if I am eating up like a pig. Not so good idea to kill time. And by the way, food was just ok. Isn't really good. But the experience was amazing able to really how life was here in India as the train goes by one city to another.

Thankful In Delhi

I don't know it is the cold weather here or I'm just being melancholy tonight. It is 9 degrees now and me lying on my bed blogging on part that I kinda am feeling now. I really couldn't explain why am I feeling so but many fragments of my past kinda flashes right in front of me. At a point 4 years ago, I was thinking these two questions that leads me on to more. Will I end up not being with that person I love, and will we end up hating each other? And the other was will we keep in touch if we were not meant to be together?

The answer was not a yes to both of that questions. I think from that moment I accept that the fact that my own mistakes that drives us apart I stop looking for blame on the end of my relationship. I don't hate baby J. Till now, I guess the right thing to say I never really stopped loving him. But it isn't that way like I never move on. We both moved on well I supposed. But we also never kept in touch. I guess that was the best for both of us.

But in many ways, I am really thankful I had him walk through my life. The part where I really see that life could be kind to me. No, life is kind to me. I feel that I would never learn how to love if he was never there. No matter where we were, no matter how we are, it is like those fragments in life, those beautiful painful memories that made us what we are today. Of course, I do wish to have news on how is he doing and all, but like I say, it's the best for us to be this way round.

Today is also my best friend birthday. And her boyfriend, ( also my bestie since 2005 ) propose to her on her birthday. I saw the whole video and the whole thing went. I guess the part that hit me was when she started to put back the memory of what she had, a lot of things don't really matters anymore. I know that many part of her genuinely felt warmth. I kinda know how all of that meant to her. As much as I wanna be there for her tonight, but I'm 2000 miles away giving all my blessings to her. I'm not gonna talk much about her cuz I know she will be reading this.

But just a big prt of me, being back in Delhi after so long, so much changes here and I guess that is life. No matter hat we do, memories are the only things that stayed on. The world kept moving and so will we eventually. Just a big part of me feeling thankful and turning the pages of my memory, smiling with a little tear that follows.

From Colombo To Delhi

The new beginning of another new journey. Flying off from Colombo Sri Lanka to Delhi. Yet again, something exciting about it. Sri Lanka was actually wonderful, better than what I was expecting. It was lovely, comforting, and warm. The only down part is my little annoying brother that loves to annoy me. Not to mention that I was not the annoying one. *Evil laughs*

Anyhow, all I could say that Sri Lanka is relatively a nice place to relax and just unwind. For what that worth, the beach was breath taking. A could say that many many parts of it really has its own unique way. Not to mention the food was amazing. Definitely one place to visit just to relax and be with friends , family or love ones.

Now writing this on a plane relatively putting myself back to the things I was really looking forward to find. It has been years since the last time I was in India. But for all the wrong reasons, my last trip to India was really beautiful. Excluding the lousy food, jams, drivers and all. But it was just one beautiful memory. This time round, I am here alone, I wanna create new memories. Another new beginning and a beautiful end.

So, 3 more hours to land in Delhi. Hope that the internet connections are widely available so I could possibly get online more often. My post maybe a little here and there. Hopefully you guys would bear with it. I think it has kinda become a thing for me to like blog on the bits and parcels of how life could be. Partly it makes me remember no matter how bad things were, it will be different if we see the other side of it. What doesn't make sense to me now is having two annoying company looking at me blogging now. (Mom and my baby bro) So, I am gonna continue this post when I get the chance to in Delhi. On what is worth, life is indeed kind and beautiful to me.

Sri Lanka Day Three - Colombo

I am soooo tired I am just gonna let the picture do all the talking. Leaving to India tomorrow. I can't wait. So much to share but so little time to sleep.

Sri Lanka Day Two - Kandy

It takes about 100km from Colombo to get to Kandy. Kandy is the old capital of Sri Lanka, located in central of the island. Hope on the bus round eight in the morning and started the journey here.

The funny part is when I asked roughly how long will it takes TP travel here, I was told it will take 4 Sri Lankan hours to get here. I was puzzled at first why is it so, but finally I got to understand it is how the culture here. They will stop for tea, coconut and many more with the absolute weird out excuses. In the end, it took us about 4hours 30 minutes of journey instead of the usual 3 hours. Not that I am complaining, just thought that I would rather spend more time in the city than on the bus.

What I really find funny is Sri Lanka is another country without McDonalds. Yes I know I am hopeless but that is somewhat facts of me craving for one. Anyhow, the trip was pretty pleasant. (Not referring to how the driver drives. I guess it is a lot similar to the Indian culture on driving in India)

What I do find funny is the people. Maybe there ain't a lot of yellow skin over here. Me and my brother was standing by the roadside just out of fun, they were looking at us like this weird kinda animal of some sort. But they were friendly of course. Just like the way we see them. I think you know what I meant. Nothing racist, it is just a funny situation.

The highlight of the day is actually night time. We visited the temple where the Buddha's tooth relic was place. It is one older full experience. It was so Devine and peaceful. The crowd there was just something that beyond words to describe. The architecture, landscapes and energy around the whole compound s just amazing. We got the privilege to pay homage in the shrine which wasn't open for public. It was just wonderful.

But the best part was the hopelessness in me start to surface. The funny thing was I am not denying it That I am actually enjoying it. After having our prayers, we do have time to just roam around. So, usual thing I did. The there was this bunch of hot sexy Americans (which of course I find out after talking to them) there was this one guy Jeremy. He had like the most amazing feature. Or it is just purely me being me. Beautiful blue eyes, that cheekbone, butt chin and blonde hair. He was around my height at 6'4" tall. We kinda like hit it off right away. So long story short, we went and told our friends and family we ill not be joining them till tonight.

So we met again after like 20 minutes later. He is from California actually. God I got no idea I was on the roll or just pure luck that I met a guy that hot. So went for our dinner at a local restaurant near the lake. We had some wine and all, good talks and of course me bing me, throwing some lame jokes at him. (Which he finds it funny) weird right,not many laugh on those pathetic lame jokes of mine. Anyhow, I will keep the suspense on later when I get back. But relatively, I went back to the room the next day getting ready to head back to Colombo. :P Buzz kill..  Period...

Sri Lanka Day One

An amazing first day I have to say. What really was crazy about it was travelling with my brother. You can think of the most craziest thing that could happen. But for me, it was pretty fun in many ways.

For starters, I haven't really do much. We touch down at 5.30pm Sri Lanka time which is about 8.00pm Malaysia time. Arrived at the hotel around 7pm had dinner then me and my baby bro went walking by the beach. It was dark so no idea how the beach is like but I could feel the soft fine sand on my feet.

What really did hit me was when I was walking along the beach, I came across one lovely old lady. It was dark at first so I couldn't really make out that she was a lock or tourist. But after saying hi, and some small talk, she is indeed a lovely middle age women from California who works in south India. What really surprise me was her occupation. Everyone knows I love dogs. That is what made me walk up and talk to her. She has these 6 beautiful dogs around her. They were like family to her. And Indeed, she works with dogs in India. She comes to home to her husband who works here in Sri Lanka.

What is fascinating about her was her passion. Her passion she had with dogs. She study them, learn their language and know what were their behavior. She was just one simply amazing women. Now lying here on my bed, I reflect that we humans, are easily side track with what our passion is. Or maybe it is just me. Not putting any judgement but in many ways, I think whenever I am feeling tired or miserable with my health condition, it always cloud my mind. I lost track of what I really love doing.

Maybe what I am trying to say is I should really have a little more faith in what my passion is. Knowing what I wanted to do always. Yes, it won't be n easy task, but to thrive and succeed, I need to put my mind in what I love doing, I know that in many ways, saying is easier than done. But how long more I still wanna give that excuse myself?

So in short, I know all I wanna do now is sleep. But my mind is telling otherwise. So good night y'all. A long journey to Kandy tomorrow. Can't wait for the new adventure begins. End of day one.

The Night Before The Journey Starts

What a day! I actually spent a crazy day with my family and my two annoying bestie! Actually got all myself checked up, got my meds right and some quality family time. It was really great to spend time with them. Especially with my little baby brother. He is like a devil broken free from hell. God, I can't believe how much he could eat actually. But anyhow, I did spend sometime with my besties too. Just shopping, and damn, it was good but yet tiring. My feet and back really hurt like hell but it is all worth it.

But now sitting here in the hall before heading to bed, I actually trying to reflect what I have left in the days. What were the things that is missing in me. This trip is just something that I got no idea at all what to expect. At some point, I really wish I could really start filling all the missing point in life.

I am not denying this year was exceptional for me, there are lost battles, yet there are triumph. But what means to me now is to fulfill that inner part of me that isn't complete. There some part in me that felt missing in many levels. At the moment, everything is still at a very blur state. Maybe I am just still tired from the long flight and crazy schedule. I still haven't had the time to really sit down and look on what I am feeling. Or maybe part of me just wanna just let it flow when it comes. I don't really know. It is just some part of it which is going through my mind.

So, I just wanna finish this little piece before the journey starts. Had a super great time with my love ones, and now, the journey begins from here. Good nite y'all. I will update about this journey from time to time if I could. (If they had internet at the place I am staying.) I anticipate the moment I opened my eyes tomorrow.

My Own Eat Love Pray Journey

In so many ways, it really reminds me of this movie. But I am taking my own journey with it. Sitting here waiting for my transfer flight, I was looking around and it get me thinking about what I wanna do in life with it. Embarking on my own journey to find this peace I was longing for.

Seeing around what is happening around me, I find sometimes I kinda like to put myself into spots where it made me uncomfortable. So you may ask that if I know it makes me uncomfortable but why do I still embrace it? Because I care too much. Not to put that I have a choice. I do really have that choice, but I took the decision of doing this. Maybe many may not understand but what matters is I have to live up to it.

Yes this may sound confusing, but in ways, it really isn't. Seeing the people sitting around the lounge pretty much answers it all. Some were waiting to rejoin their family and love ones and friends, some waiting to leave for an adventure, some were just business travelers. And some way, I fall into the first two category.

As I put on a summary of the whole year, I see things gonna be just as life was suppose to be. The ups and downs. The twist and turns. Shows me more about where to I really stand in life and what I wanna do with it. So this journey begins. I once told a close friend maybe I wanted to be a monk or something. But that isn't the point. What I rally wanted s to make peace with that inner self of mine.

I wanted to put it down like a journal and record the moments I'm going through with it. What will unfold for me in the last few weeks of the year? Let the journey begins and unfold the path I was seeking for.