From A World That No One Will Understand.

Where there is no one there, three beautiful people in my life took me up and lead me back. I know that all of you cared and love me the way I am. But somehow this broken pieces are just way too much for me to handle. I know in many ways the cared and beautiful words that supports me to stand up again.But when I was with you and the sight of the baby grand standing in front of me.My heart shatter into pieces. Wish I would sit and all the beautiful tunes will flow.Whereas only holding back is what I can do. I know all of you love me the way I am. I love you all more than anyone can imagine I had. Anthony, I do thank you for your patience and love. But I can't have it now. My heart won't be entirely yours. and I will not be the same man I used to be. But thankfully I will always be a friend to you. Kelly, You never ever failed me for once. Consistently being by my side. Bringing me up when i am down. But this time I have to do it myself. Andrew, Thanks for all of your effort and intuitive heart you have. I know you wanna push me up again. But Like wise with Kel, I have to find my way myself. And thanks for that wonderful gift. It is really my first in life. I wish I could say no. But i know if I did, I would break your heart. I will cherish and care for it like non I had. 
Nell, You are as inspiring as you are. Your book is such a beautiful one. I will live for music and love like you say. It will be a new beginning. I will cherish that motivation you gave me. Your light has brought me so much laughter and wisdom. You are as inspiring as you are. Till now I can't believe I was sitting in front of you bragging about my  journey and patiently you are listening to it. And having dinner and that show we went. Magical and inspiring. Thanks very much Nell. You are really an angel

This may be my last ounce of breathe to those that understand. I wish the love I share will never end but somehow it has to. Till I can find myself again. For now, please let me go peacefully.. That is all I ever ask.. let me go.. .. ..


2 a.m., where do I begin?Crying off my face againThe silent sounds of lonelinessWants to follow me to bed
I'm a ghost of a my past that I want to be mostI'm the shell of a my present that I used to know well

Too afraid to go insideFor the pain of one more loveless nightBut the loneliness will stay with meAnd hold me 'til I fall asleep

I'm a ghost of a my present that I want to be mostI'm the shell of a my future that I used to know well
Broken pieces ofA barely breathing storyWhere there once was loveNow there's only me and the lonely

Dancing slowly in an empty roomCan the lonely take the place of you?I sing myself a quiet lullabyLet you go and let the lonely in to take my heart again..

To that single person that stands strong in my heart. I love you more than words can say

You thought me more than anyone does the way of life, to live and to love.

I will miss you every single day after all these have gone. 

I love you every single breathe I take. I really do.

Loving You For A Thousand Years.

Heartbeats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you 
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

Mend a heart~

It's probably what's best for you
I only want the best for you
and if I'm not the best
then you're stuck

I tried to sever ties
and I ended up with wounds to bind
like you're pouring salt in my cuts

And I just ran out of bandaids
I don't even know where to start
cause you can bandage the damage
you never really can fix a heart
Even now I know what's wrong
how could I be so sure
if you never say what you feel, feel

I musta held you hand so tight
you didn't have the will to fight
I guess you needed more time to heal

Baby I just ran out of bandaids
I don't even know where to start
cause you can bandage the damage
you never really can fix a heart

You must be a miracle worker
swearing up and down you can fix 
what's been broken yeah
please don't get my hopes up no no
baby tell me how could you be so cruel

It's like you're pouring salt on my cuts
Baby I just ran out of bandaids
I don't even know where to start
cause you can bandage the damage
you never really can fix a heart

Baby I just ran out of bandaids
I don't even know where to start
cause you can bandage the damage
you never really can fix a heart

Closing at the end.

It has come to a closing at last. There ain't any more unfinished business.
I had found peace (hopefully) at last.
The burden is being let down. I am now free to go my way.
In many ways, I have planned all the remaining days and things in hand.

A beautiful angel, thank you so much for bringing me back to this world.
Where a world I did not believe love will be there any more.

Somehow it was just not the right thing even it felt right.
Somehow there is still something I felt not right. It was all Nicholas all over again.
And with this, I do trust it was the right thing to do. Beautifully right to look back and smile.
Maybe not rightfully there. I love the way you are. Kel, I know you will take good care of my angel.
Your light is the most beautiful thing for him. He has a beautiful and innocent soul.
Time for me to go my way. And Kel, don't worry about me any more.
Its m calling now. I will miss you guys so much. This 11 years is a beautiful one.
My angel, its not a long time we have known each other, but I want you to know, No matter where I am, I will always be there. You will know cause you are my shining star.

A beautiful life it was for me so far, James you taught me how to love, Thank you very much for slapping me and wake me up from my dream. Without you, I will never learn how to love.
You will always be a memory that will live within me. A painful yet a beautiful one.
I loved you the  wrong way, but it was never a lie. You were my everything. Thank you very much.
Forgive me for not loving you the right way. Without you, I never knew that the pain of letting go someone you love. I know now. The pain is unbelievably painful. Even more painful when it was just something which doesn't belong to you at all. Again, Thank you.

This is the beautiful evening sky here beside the lake. Thinking that how beautiful it was if you were here now. The sunset today made me stop and think for a good long time.  It was the right thing to do now. I know how much I have to deal with if I were to choose the other way round. It was the best for all. And now, believing the love does exist, thankfully, I found my way now. It is my time. Hopefully our path will cross again. If that time does come that way, I will never let go of what I will see in you ever again. Thank you for a beautiful life and a beautiful memory. I do hope the "snow" will come again like that one that came on a beautiful October morning.

Why don't you try

I am a woman

Cut in two

By ambitious pride

Stuck in my ways

Between you and my other life

Now I have been around enough to know when love has ended

But I believe that you and I deserve to be extended

So why don't you try

To make me stay

When it's time to go

Why don't you try

To stand in my way

'Cause we both know

I can't stop myself

Our empty house

You occupy

When I'm far away

Heavier hearts won't justify

Why I'm gone today

Now I have hung a cloud above our lives from always leaving

Figured you would at least make me give a better reason

So why don't you try

To make me stay

When it's time to go

Why don't you try

To stand in my way

Because we both know

I can't stop myself

In the early mornings when I'm up before dawn

You say "why don't you stay" but you keep sleeping on

Maybe you're just used to me being gone

Cause if you know that I don't want to go

Then why don't you try

Oh yeah

When it's time to go

Why don't you try

To stand in my way

'Cause we both know

I can't stop myself

Why don't you

Why don't you try

When it's time to go oh

'Cause I don't want to have to go

And be the one to leave you holding on alone

But this this is my goodbye

So why don't you try

Oh oh oh

Why don't you

Why don't you

Why don't you try

Breaking Your Own Heart Lyrics

shaking your head like it’s all wrong
before you’re here you’re already gone
and even with the light all around you
you’re all alone in the dark.
you’re breaking your own heart
taking it too far down the lonely road
you say it’s just one love
but when it’s close enough you just let it go
the very thing you’ve been the most afraid of
you’ve been doing it from the start, breaking your own heart.
too many tears, too many falls
it’s easy to hear behind these walls
but you don’t have to walk in the shadows
life is so hard.
you’re breaking your own heart
taking it too far down the lonely road
you say it’s just one love
but when it’s close enough you just let it go
the very thing you’ve been the most afraid of
you’ve been doing it from the start, breaking your own heart.

it’s not too late, i’m still right here.
if only you let go of your fears.
you’re breaking your heart
taking your own heart down the lonely road
you say it’s just one love
but when it’s close enough you just let it go
the very thing you’ve been the most afraid of
you’ve been doing it from the start, breaking your own heart.
you’re breaking your own heart

My Last Request

When your smile becomes the reason I breathe

And your eyes become the motive to see

But if it’s better for your health

To say the love, it lives in someone else

And all that I can say

And all that I can say

Is she is my last request

Everything else is suddenly taken over

And I’m my own regret

And all that I wanted is out of my hands

Your thoughts of war,

Religion and love,

Are the things that I recall when you’re gone

And now I’m left without a clue

On where I stood in line when I lost you

And all that I can say

Yes all that I can say

Is she is my last request

Everything else is suddenly taken over

And I’m my own regret

And all that I wanted is out of my hands

Out of my hands

When your smile becomes the reason I breathe

And your eyes become the motive to see

Then all I can say

Is she is my last request

Everything else is suddenly taken over

And I’m my own regret

And all that I wanted is out of my hands

Out of my hands

She’s my last regret

And all that I wanted is out of my hands

FADE INTO ME

"Fade Into Me" isn’t about one person in particular but it’s the idea of that perfect ONE, finding your soul mate, someone you can disappear into.  How I wish that I could say this song is to YOU~

All I feel now,

Is the weight of the day,

I need you with me,

To push it away,

We disappeared into each other,

Colors appeared and bleed into one,

Fade into me, fade into you,

Two of us melting together until we become something new,

We can't escape,

And watch the world chasing to find us,

Both of us hidden from view,

If you, fade into me, fade into me.

When I'm broken,

You're the one thing I need,

Like an ocean,

Feel you crash over me,

We disappeared into each other,

Colors appeared and bleed into one,

Not gonna fall in,

Drown in the moment with me,

Sinking till we start to breathe.

Fade into me, fade into you,

Two of us melting together until we become something new,

We can't escape,

And watch the world chasing to find us,

Both of us hidden from view,

If you, fade into me