~~Time To Stand Up~~

Today is just another day,
I felt that sometimes, when you really like someone, you tend to loose control of yourself.
I did lost control of myself last night... but.. Phew... nothing happened..
I'm glad that we both know that we are just two lonely people who get together.
What I'm really looking for in my heart is something really passionate..
I dunno sometimes izxit all true or izxit just an infatuation.
Hmm... but i really enjoy your company. But my dear... Like i told you before,
When you need a friend, I'll be there, when you need someone to love you, here I am.
Sometimes, i know loving someone is hard.. but I really don understand what is the difference between a normal relationship and one with full of scandals..
Anyway, all i can say here is every individual is different.

I wont be a BITCH and I know what I want..
one day... someone out there.. there will be someone right for me...
But ... even i know it is not easy now to let everything go in a day..
I know when the day comes.. I will be fine..
Croatia.. Here I come~~~~ Wish myself a good trip..
I will miss everyone of you.. Take good care of yourself..
And dear, if you happen to read this, I want you to know, I say all this is nothing have to do with you.. Like i mention above,

"Every individual is different"

I really thank you for the feeling you have brought to me..
I really hope one day, If God permits us.. I still hope to be together with you.
I wish you well and your lover..
Hugss~~~

I'm such a fool~~~

I really don't know what should I say.
Friends? Whatever? Or?
Feeling so empty...
Does most people here in Malaysia really have the point of view of being something in mind?
Does everyone has a purpose?
Does everyone has a motive?

Am I just being stupid to treat everyone with my heart..
and in the end.. What have I got?
Misunderstood

SY.. I hope you are well.. really...
Now I really regret not moving to Korea.
But life has to go on..
I guess I just have to change myself into something I'm not.

I'm so numb~~~
Really don't know what to say except

I"M A FOOL~~~~~~

Should I or Should I Not?

There is a move that I should decide.

Should I or Should I not?

There is a special person that I have met.

Should I or Should I not?

This special person has another special person.

Should I or Should I not?

That special person to my special person is not me.

Should I or Should I not?

My brain ask me to stop, But my heart ask me to go for it.

Should I or Should I not?

We have so much in common. But is this call love?

Should I or Should I not?

Will I let go of everything and trust fully like I did in the past.

Should I or Should I not?

Will I ever get hurt by you?

Should I or Should I not Love You ?

What do I want from myself?

What do I really want?
Is it you?
Or is it not you?
I wonder how people relate themselves when they say they are happy with you?
I wonder how people will manipulate others feelings?
I wonder being a player or being a lover is better?
Am I really sick and tired of being played?
Did I really move on from the previous person to you?
What am I to you?

I am just a no body~~~
I can't be a player as I am a born lover~~~

God~~~ I need you to guide me through this... ...
Take the wheel from me as I am letting go now~~~

Why You~~~

Why must you hurt me so?
You tear me all apart.
Why did you have to go?
You wound and break my heart.

Why did you us me like this?
You played me like a violin.
Why is it you I miss?
You've hurt me again and again.

Why must I need you?
You gave me nothing but tears.
Why, after all you put me through?
You're face fills all my fears.