A beautiful life~

I'm sitting alone, eyes in a daze
My life a map of confusion, my world like a maze

I holds my head high and wipes back the tears
The words I don't love you echo in my ears

I clasps my hands and bow my head
Is my life over or am I simply dead?

A beautiful soul has taken my heart
He wanted beauty instead of his smarts

Six months later and a small engagement band
That man got down on his knees and asked for her hand

That woman smiled while her daughter screamed yes!
One year later she walked the aisle in a white dress

Happiness was found that day on the street
With that handsome stranger she happened to meet

Together they live in a small little town
Embracing the love they both had found

Now, sixty years later and I love you so
He held that woman's hand saying although you are leaving, I'll never let you go...

To Live Again

Everyday and night~ I am still trying hard to move on in life~
Seems so hard at times. Every time when I thought I have move a step forward,
I was actually moving a step back~
I am really tired of everything in life. I know it was all my own doings.
I am tired of drugs, I am tired of being a waste of space in life.
I wish I will be able to take a step towards a new beginning.
Everyone is telling me time heals..
It has been one year one month and 8 days.
And I am still standing here.
When will I forgive myself? When will I be able to live without guilt?
But still hoping for a silver lining that I believe one day it will come~
I hope it will~ everyday~