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Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Missing

Emotions really plays a big part of what we are going through everyday. With the current condition, I just didn't feel like getting outta bed. I have been in the same spot for the past 2 hours now since I got up. Every movement is just intense pain. Sigh. Anyway, called the hospital and set my appointment tomorrow. One more day to just endure this.

I got no idea why, all my mind now was just Mr D. He always just know what to do. Maybe he is someone who really understood how painful it is for me. I guess all Halloween plans are cancel for me. My clown mask will just gotta wait for next year.

I was kinda having a tune in my head. But decided not to put it down. I guess it is just me fighting with myself. I needed to stop writing emotional ballads and starting to put down what I use to write. The good thing is I am not due with any songs until March next year. I wanted to go back to that pop rock roots. I also have been playing some of my old songs. I just didn't even know how did that come from.

Reminded me that music is a way for me to express. Maybe since London till now, I was just so focus on ballads as we needed to put on a compilation on that. And now, looking at the edges between the seaboard, I felt I just needed a break from everything.

There have been a lot going on in my mind. Looking back at some of the people in my life. I am somehow missing them so much. I got a mail from a really close friend of mine. Asking me when will I be back in KL. And he misses me. I could just reply that mail with the dates and I do misses him a lot too. The last time I met him was in the hospital in Sunway. It is somehow a really weird relationship we both had. But what I really cherish between me and him was how we could understand each other and be there for each other.

The more I think of it, the more I lost the courage to reply. I knew no matter what I write, he would know that it isn't easy for me. To be honest, he is one of the few who always have faith in me. Even when hopes were slim. I remember he told me about what happen in the past. He somehow knew that it would tough but he never gave up that hope he has for me. For that I really appreciate him. Not gonna write about that. Just wanted to keep that to myself for the time being.

Imma gonna just try to sleep off the pain. For now, I guess just one word I could describe what I have to go through.  -  Endure. And just another part of me is missing. Guess time will just let heal.



Feeling The Blues

One of the best moments in life is when we share that special moment with someone that really matters to is. But seemingly there is always a spot where it isn't enough for us. The thing I really ask myself was when will it be enough? Looking at time pass by, we do always miss those moments we really wish we take it seriously.

Maybe I am feeling just a little disturb. Or to be perfectly honest, jealous. I don't know what is wrong with me. I just felt sometimes, the priority was just crap to me. Whenever I think of it more, I felt like I just couldn't breath. I put effort to spend time with them, but all they have in mind was the in-laws. 

Listening to Clown a cover did by Charice originally sang by Emeli Sande. Just like what the song puts it. I am desperate I suppose. Desperate to make it right. But I wonder now am I trying too hard? Maybe I was.

I don't know is it the weather or me, I am feeling nostalgic a lot today. Missing certain people in my life. I really wish you were here. I guess it is ok for me to be emotional once a while. I just am so tired today. The only thing now in my mind that why is it all you. I wanna shout, I wanna sing, I wanna cry out! But I know the neighbor will be shouting back at me if I do.

Looking out the window with the raindrops. Just exactly the way I am feeling much right now. Time to go to bed for now. Hope it would be better in the morning.

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Simple

This take back to a long time back in time. Something that soils into my mind. One of my bestie once told me this by the beach.
Life is simple.
Another bestie of mine was talking to me last night about something he came across. Another life lost to cancer. And he told me that he didn't know what will he do if he was at that same position. In many ways, there are more things worst than cancer. What was the downside of cancer? Feeling tired, pain attacks from time to time, and medications. But I strongly believe that sometimes, things happen for a reason. From time to time, yes emotionally will be really feeling down and couldn't take the pain and all. But when it is over, things are better.

I am kinda used to it now. After all, it has been good 7 years for me. But what else is new, what I really do find life is wonderful is because I lived it. No idea what is wrong with me. Maybe being back home here makes everything feels right? Or I have a bunch of besties who are Assholes Bastards! You know who you are! :P They have been killing me softly!  Anything they knew would always be something to just torture me!

With everything that has been going on, I have to say I am blessed to be honest. I just couldn't wait to be back in KL. I don't know is the weather making me feeling mellow or just me being me. Hahaha.. But I know today would be another wonderful of man to come. Loving the usual coffee and "me" time. But everything would come to an end.

Oh, by the way, couldn't wait to post something really interesting and new soon. So stay tune! I am waiting to grab those tracks and share it with you guys before the world does.
My bestie immortalize the moment when she told me : Dear, actually life is simple. Of course those are not us! We saw this young couple and it just struck us. Life is simple. 

Anyway, taking this moment for the lost lives in Hurricane Sandy. My prayers to the families of the 16 lives lost in the Hurricane. May peace be with them.

Monday, October 29, 2012

Don't Rush - Kelly Clarkson

Kelly Clarkson‘s upcoming greatest hits album, Greatest Hits — Chapter One, has already spawned one major single — the reflective, inspirational midtempo “Catch My Breath” — but Clarkson isn’t content to corner just one part of the market. Having already met with significant success for her Jason Aldean collaboration,“Don’t You Wanna Stay,” the chanteuse is releasing a country single from her greatest hits compilation as well. For this track, titled “Don’t Rush,” Clarkson teamed up with country crooner Vince Gill for a duet that’s as sensuous and lush as anything in Clarkson’s catalog. 
In “Don’t Rush,” Clarkson — a Texas native, lest you forget — imbues her restrained vocals with an additional twang that’s perfectly suited for the country instrumentation. “Just hanging on every touch, baby don’t rush,” Clarkson sings on the sweet chorus. As with her Aldean duet, having a sparring partner brings Clarkson’s impressively emotive vocals to life, and Gill proves a more-than-capable mate — even if the yearning of her Aldean duet was perhaps more powerful.

The song’s breezy soft-rock sound feels a little neutered, but it’s also pretty likable — and even if we love our Clarkson with claws, we don’t need her to be so edgy all the time.
What do you think of Kelly Clarkson’s new single? Sound off in the comments

MAS Confirms Oneworld Inauguration Date

Malaysia Airlines will become a full member of oneworld® with effect from Friday 1 February 2013, adding one of commercial aviation's most frequent award winners to the world's leading quality airline alliance.

The national airline of Malaysia received clearance to board oneworld after successfully completing a thorough review of its readiness conducted by Qantas, which is sponsoring its entry into the alliance, with the oneworld central team.

While its alliance implementation programme is on track for completion in the coming weeks, its addition to oneworld is being held until the beginning of 2013 to avoid the end-of-year holiday season and for other administrative reasons.

Malaysia Airlines will start offering oneworld's full range of services and benefits from 1 February 2013 - becoming the alliance's second airline operating the Airbus A380, after its oneworld sponsor Qantas.

From then, the 2 million members of Malaysia Airlines' Enrich loyalty programme will, in effect, have their frequent flyer privileges extended to whenever they fly with any oneworld member airline - airberlin, American Airlines, British Airways, Cathay Pacific Airways, Finnair, Iberia, Japan Airlines, LAN Airlines, Qantas, Royal Jordanian, S7 Airlines and some 25 affiliated airlines. This includes earning and redeeming mileage awards and earning tier status points when flying with all these airlines.

Enrich Platinum cardholders will have Emerald status in the oneworld programme. Enrich Gold will be equivalent to oneworld Sapphire and Enrich Silver will be oneworld Ruby.

From 1 February, Enrich Platinum and Gold members will be able to use any of the 550 airport lounges worldwide offered by oneworld member airlines whenever they fly with any of the alliance's carriers. Malaysia Airlines' First and Business Class passengers will also be able to use oneworld partner airline lounges.

Also from 1 February, the 125 million members of the established oneworld airlines' frequent flyer programmes will be able to earn and redeem awards and tier status points and receive all other oneworld benefits on Malaysia Airlines.

Malaysia Airlines is already participating in Global Explorer, the round-the-world fare offered by all oneworld members and various airlines that are not part of the alliance. From 1 February, Malaysia Airlines' network - serving more than 60 destinations in nearly 30 countries - will be covered by oneworld's full and extensive range of alliance fares and sales products.

Malaysia Airlines will substantially expand the alliance's network in South East Asia, where it will add 14 destinations and one country - Brunei - to the oneworld map. More significantly, it will strengthen the alliance's connectivity between many key business cities in Asia and other parts of the world.

Its addition will expand oneworld's global coverage to some 840 destinations in 156 countries, served by some 9,000 departures a day operated by a combined fleet of some 2,500 aircraft, carrying nearly 340 million passengers a year, with annual revenues of US$ 110 billion. Add oneworld's other members elect - Qatar Airways and Sri Lankan Airlines - and the alliance network reaches to 856 destinations in 159 countries.

Currently three of oneworld's active member airlines serve three points in Malaysia, with Cathay Pacific, Japan Airlines and Royal Jordanian flying to Kuala Lumpur, Cathay Pacific operating to Penang and its Dragonair regional affiliate to Kota Kinabalu. 

Malaysia Airlines' oneworld implementation programme has represented one of the most extensive projects in the airline's history, with working groups covering some 20 streams of activity. Projects are nearing completion to bring its various internal processes and procedures into line with the alliance's requirements, and extensive employee training and communications programmes are now underway at Malaysia Airlines and the alliance's existing members, to ensure they are ready to provide oneworld's customer services and benefits across the expanded alliance from 1 February.

oneworld CEO Bruce Ashby said: "Malaysia Airlines is an ideal candidate for oneworld, with its world-class reputation for customer service mirroring oneworld's own focus. Its Kuala Lumpur home will provide our customers with another of the world's best airports, geographically well placed between our existing hubs. This will greatly enhance oneworld's offering throughout one of the world's fastest growing region for air travel demand."

Malaysia Airlines Group Chief Executive Ahmad Jauhari Yahya added: "oneworld membership represents one of the most significant achievements to date for Malaysia Airlines. It will strengthen our competitive position considerably, enabling our customers to enjoy a truly global network together with our partners who include some of the best and biggest airlines in the world, while enabling us also to tap into all the financial benefits that come from being part of a global alliance, through additional passenger feed and cost reduction opportunities. We are very pleased and proud to join what is clearly the world's top quality airline grouping on 1 February."

Because of an upgrade to LAN's frequent flyer information technology system being implemented shortly after Malaysia Airlines joins oneworld, frequent flyer services and benefits between Malaysia Airlines and LAN will be available from 1 April 2013. So members of Malaysia Airlines' Enrich programme will be able to earn or redeem frequent flyer reward points and receive other oneworld frequent flyer services and benefits when flying on LAN Airlines, and members of LAN's LANPASS programme will be able to earn or redeem frequent flyer reward points, and receive other oneworld benefits when flying on Malaysia Airlines from 1 April 2013.

Malaysia Airlines started operations in 1947. Today, it serves more than 60 destinations in almost 30 countries across Asia, Australasia, Middle East, Europe, and North America, including oneworld hubs Hong Kong, London Heathrow, Los Angeles, Sydney and Tokyo Haneda and Narita.

Its present fleet of 88 aircraft - including its flagship Airbus A380s - operates more than 250 departures a day. It boarded 13 million passengers in 2011, generating revenues of MYR 13.6 billion (US$ 4.5 billion).

Malaysia Airlines describes its distinctive brand is an extension of the special culture of warmth and friendliness unique to Malaysians. This inimitable Malaysian sense of graciousness is branded as "Malaysian Hospitality" and symbolized by the acronym MH, which is also the airline's flight code.

Both Malaysia Airlines and its Kuala Lumpur hub are among the industry's most frequent winners of awards for quality service. Malaysia Airlines itself has won the World's Best Cabin Crew title from the Skytrax airline quality rating agency in seven of the past 11 years. 

This year, Malaysia Airlines marked the entry of its first A380 into the airline's fleet by having its Five-Star Airline status renewed by Skytrax - as the airline embarked on a series of improvements to repositioning it as a premium carrier.

oneworld aims to be the first choice airline alliance for the world's frequent international travellers. It brings together some of the best and biggest names in the airline business - airberlin, American Airlines, British Airways, Cathay Pacific, Finnair, Iberia, Japan Airlines, LAN, Qantas, Royal Jordanian and S7 Airlines, and around 20 affiliates including Austria's NIKI, American Eagle, Dragonair, LAN Argentina, LAN Ecuador and LAN Peru. Malaysia Airlines will join on 1 February 2013, followed by SriLankan Airlines later in 2013 and then Qatar Airlines.

oneworld enables its members to offer their customers more services and benefits than any airline can provide on its own. These include a broader route network, opportunities to earn and redeem frequent flyer miles and points across the combined oneworld network and more airport lounges. oneworld also offers more alliance fares than any of its competitors.

oneworld is current holder of three leading international awards for airline alliances - named the Best Airline Alliance by Global Traveler in its GT Tested Reader Survey 2011 Awards for the second year running, the World's Leading Airline Alliance in the 2011 World Travel Awards, for the ninth consecutive year, and the Best Airline Alliance 2011 in Australian Business Traveller's debut awards.

Sunday, October 28, 2012

说不出那种感觉

有个人、爱过了、就结束了
有句话、说过了、就后悔了
有道伤、痛过了、就麻木了
有颗心、颤过了、就破碎了

一段亲情、过密了、就断绝了
一段友情、过近了、就稀释了
一段爱情、过深了、就剧终了
一段路口、过难了、就错选了

有些东西、时间放久了、就会变质的
有些事物、发展很久了、也会变质的
有些感情、时间和距离、是会贬值的
有些伤痛、酝酿得越久、发作得越厉害

有时候、想说出那三个字、却没勇气
有时候、想说出另三个字、却狠不下心
有时候、想刻意记得、却总是忘记
有时候、想可以忘记、却总是败笔

唯一一个人、想爱、可不能
唯一一个人、想恨、不可能
唯一一个人、想留、却无能
唯一一个人、想放、却不能

恋着一个人、天使从不曾离开
想着一个人、眼睛从开始睁开
望着一个人、目光在哪里停留
梦见一个人、微笑何时在嘴边

想说、我还喜欢你
想问、还喜欢我不
想懂、你在想什么
想装、所有的痛伤

想忘、那美好的过去
想忆、却渐渐逝去
想静、却心烦意乱
想哭、却泪已流尽

曾幻想、你我依然在一起
曾梦想、我会一生有你
而现实、看见你、我在躲避
不见你、却在寻觅
而如今、说不出那种感觉
道不出那份思念

Besties Are Assholes

Despite of the title of this post, the truth shall be spoken! All my besties are assholes! That is why I love them so much! Fact is, I am blessed to have them with me all this while. Me for being me, they just know how to get the best outta me.

They really know where is my weakness to just push those buttons so I will walk past them and move on. Even on my diet! Kept mentioning corndogs and all. And yes, they never stop pushing me to get out from my celibacy vow.

And on the recent event from my nightmare, Rainer totally gave me a tight slap on the face! No idea should I love her for that or thank her. I totally deserve that for doubting myself because of my own conscience. And when I talk to Mr D, as usual, he always made me felt safe and sound. No matter what I am going through. To quote something he told me, I really am thankful to have him in my life.
Dreams do not dictate the way to live our lives.
He knew that music was my passion and what I am doing is for. I just do not know how much could I express my gratitude for you. You were always there for me. Love you loads!!!

The best part of it, when I told my mom, she totally ignore me. I love her for that! Classic move as ever!

Anyway, I am now still planning my birthday bash! It would be just a small internal affair with my besties. But the thing now is where? Was thinking to go on some island in Thailand or Bali for that! Still weighing my options! I know that weekend would be awesome. It would be loads of intimate time to catch up with all of them. It would be something I am looking yearly. Still looking at the villas and salivating towards the bath tub. I have a thing for nice bath tub. I know.. But not in the kinky way. Just wanted to explain before some ideas pop up. Can't wait to be back in Asia!

Nightmare

I got no idea what has got into me. I had like the worst nightmare ever. No idea weather is I am too tired or just that the jet lag is getting to me. Waking up at this hour, and having like the worst feeling ever. I got no idea why I would let it get to me. Or maybe the idea of it is still just really fresh at the moment.

I had the weirdest dream ever. First was brother and brother bonding. Turn into a tuition runaway and a consultation session with a teacher. (which I got no idea who the hell is she)  Knowing the fact that so far, I haven't got any number one hit on the billboard yet so far through out my entire career in song writing. The highest point I get was to number 12 in the billboards.

But the thing that happen in my dream was this fella, she told me something that I couldn't possibly get it out of my head at the moment. First thing she analyze that I was working my ass off from London, to Sydney, from LA to New York. And the point of thinking to try out doing in Asia is just out of the question. She ask me that do I think am I good enough? As much as I wanna deny this fact, I write sappy emotional tunes, which so far never got me anywhere. I didn't manage to get into top 10 like ever. And I am 28 this year. The point really got to me that am I good enough to really stay in the industry?

Somehow deep in me, I know that I would never be like those really top contender in the Grammy's or anything. I never really put thought to it. In fact, my nominee in the past was merely a team effort. I am not saying that I am not proud of it. But where am I going from here? Fact that could I or would I really wanted to have another 10 years doing like this? I mean yes, I am bless with all the work so far and the opportunity given. But would I really excel?

I just hate nightmares. I woke up straight away when she said "Are you sure you are good enough?" It sucks to be honest. I don't know what's going on. Best thing was I could possibly talk to my bestie about this. She straight away says she is going to ignore me and saying all these that is going in my mind are crap! But is it true? I don't know. I feel like shit now. Couldn't possibly sleep again, sitting here by the fire place blogging about this. Now what is going through my mind is that is it time to hand up the towel and move home. I just hate nightmares. And I just want it all outta my head now. :(

Saturday, October 27, 2012

Holiday Ending

Alrighty, I know I didn't really blog much about myself lately. I wanted to just enjoy my time here back in Boston. As much as I didn't want it to end, but it will be in just days. I really enjoyed my "me" time back here so far. Excluding all the pain going on, I think I pretty much love to be back somewhere I could call home.

What I really enjoyed most is my morning time hunting for coffee. I guess it will never be complete if it didn't really happen. Fall is beautiful here. 3 shades of color around the block. Went back to Berklee to visit my old mates and professors, heading downtown playing around with my camera, no work, nothing but doing things I wanted. I realize that time flies really fast. The last time I was back here was in Dec last year. And now November is coming real soon. Hmm...

Anyway, a quickie update on myself, I went for my appointment at the hospital. Things are going well I think. I just needed to finish up 2 more dosage of Chemotherapy and there are no signs of spreading at the moment. So, I guess I am good for that.

Just a few days back, I tweeted and also posted on Facebook on something I came across.
Life is a gift, and it offers us the privilege, opportunity, and responsibility to give something back by becoming more
 I was at a sheet music store and this was something I saw on a cover of some sheet music. It was inspiring and I wanted to share this part of the story. Maybe some may not agree, but I do think this is really a beautiful phrase. Life is really a gift. And to give back is a way to show how much life meant to us.

As this is something I come across all the time. Maybe is my work nature that needed me to be in many places around the world. And many would think I come from a high income family or something. But fact is, I am from a middle class family. Got myself to study music by scholarship and I was just lucky enough to be notice by a really great mentor of mine to get into this label now. Anyway, I guess assumptions are the things that is out of my control. (Or I should say, I don't really bother to explain myself. LOL)

Oh, Red is still looping on my iTunes at the moment, I would really love to hear some feedback if anyone had already check that album out. In so many ways, the more I listen to it, the more you would really feel her emotions that is conveying through her music. She doesn't have a big range in her voice, not the most powerful voice in town. But sold millions of copies in the first week. I guess being honest is the key of her music. Sadly, not many artist would really dig into their own emotions.

I have to head to LA next week after Halloween. I really wish I don't have to leave home so soon. But with the upcoming release and all. It will be another busy period for me. I can't wait for you guys to listen to her tracks. My personal favorite is People Like Us. Something personal. And by saying that, I needed to head down to New York before LA to pick up my stuff. That sucks! Sometimes, I just wish I could just crash here and do nothing for the whole year. Which I know, I will be complaining if ever that happen after a week. Hahaha..

I can't wait for my long holiday during Christmas period. I'm bringing my whole family to Sri Lanka, India and Nepal. No idea what to expect but just letting it roll at the moment. Oh crap, I started trading again after months of not doing it. Guess that this time gonna be pretty challenging for me. At the moment, Imma still gonna just laze myself around and enjoy while I still can.

And I also can't wait to share another new song with you guys soon. I written that and now, it is with Andrew. I am waiting for his lyrics, past to one of my singers to do the demo. I love the tune, and I am really anticipating what Andrew could come up with. Anyway, signing off now for breakfast with my boys today. I can't wait to see them. Till then again..

ps - I still couldn't make up my mind on my Halloween costume. I don't want any make up on. Just a mask and keeping it simple. Thinking of being a pregger zombie or a clown. Hmm..

Virgin’s A380 Order Depends On Economy & Oil Price

Virgin Atlantic has pushed back its Airbus A380 deliveries to 2017 and says that the eventual operation of the superjumbo will depend on the prevailing market conditions near the time.

Speaking in a wide-ranging interview in Flightglobal's Airline Business magazine interview, Virgin Atlantic chief executive Steve Ridgway - who leaves the airline next spring - said that plans for the A380 introduction were on the backburner for the moment.

"We don't need to make a decision about [our six A380 orders] now, it very much depends on the state of the global economy and the oil price," he says.

"It's a lovely quiet aircraft but it's very big and you need to operate it on some very big trunks and you need to have a big enough fleet - we always knew we'd have a small fleet and is that fleet too small? And that is a challenge for Virgin Atlantic but it's not something we need to worry about right now."

Virgin was among the first launch customers to sign for the A380 back in 2001, and was originally slated to be an early operator of the type. However after the A380 programme delays of the mid-2000s, deliveries to the UK long-haul airline have been progressively deferred. "The world has changed quite a lot since then," says Ridgway.

Scoot To Consider A Mixed 787 Fleet

Long-haul low-cost carrier Scoot could take a mix of Boeing 787s instead of all 20 of the -9 variants ordered by its parent Singapore Airlines.

Details are being worked out with Boeing and Scoot would ideally like to have a mix of aircraft, say company sources. This could include both the -8 and the prospective -10 variants.

The airline declines to comment on the possible mix and will only confirm that the order, as it stands, is for 20 -9 variants.

SIA ordered the 20 aircraft in 2006 for delivery between 2011 and 2013, but the massive delays to the 787 programme mean that the first aircraft will not arrive until 2014. The Star Alliance carrier has since ordered 40 Airbus A350-900 aircraft, including 20 that it announced on 24 October.

The airline also said on 24 October that the 787s will be transferred to Scoot, which began operations earlier this year on medium and long-haul routes out of Singapore. It says the first aircraft will start arriving from late 2014.

Scoot's fleet comprises four Boeing 777-200s that it acquired from SIA and refurbished for its own use and the airline says it expects to receive only one more of the type before the 787s begin to arrive. Having a small fleet of five aircraft is likely to allow Scoot to focus on increasing their utilisation and keeping its costs low.

The airline flies to Sydney and Gold Coast in Australia, Bangkok, Taipei in Taiwan and various destinations in China. It will fly to Tokyo's Narita airport from Taipei starting 29 October. It has also signed an interline agreement with SIA associate Tiger Airways, a Singapore-based short-haul low-cost carrier.

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Air France To Fly To KLIA in April 2013

After some 20years missing in action, Air France will start flying to Kuala Lumpur from the Paris-Charles de Gaulle Airport in France on April 22 next year, with an initial schedule of three weekly departures.

In a statement today, Air France said it will be mounting a B777-200, which has a seat capacity of 247, on the new route.

In Asia, Kuala Lumpur will be the 15th destination served by Air France. This new service is in addition to the 205 weekly flights operated between Paris, Amsterdam and Asia by Air France and KLM.

This flight complements the flight offering between Malaysia and Europe, with the daily flight already operated by KLM from Kuala Lumpur.

In combination with KLM flights, Air France-KLM Group offers 17 weekly flights from Malaysia to Europe; seven of them with KLM codeshare partner Malaysia Airlines from Kuala Lumpur to Amsterdam.

Air France-KLM country manager for Malaysia, Estee Ng, said ticket booking will open on Nov 9 2012.

"With 110,000 French tourists visiting Malaysia last year and the strong trade relations with France, it is a growing market and there is a tremendous potential for Air France-KLM to use it as a tactical location for our presence in Southeast Asia.

"Customers wishing to travel to Indonesia from Europe will also benefit from connecting opportunities to Jakarta offered by KLM," she added.

Air France-KLM is a result of a merger between Air France and KLM in 2004.

So which airlines will be seeing in the near future in KLIA? With Malaysia Airlines System joining One World Alliances, hopefully British Airways next?

Malaysia Airlines Axes Airbus A380 for Sydney, Melbourne, boosts London & Paris

Malaysia Airlines has cancelled its planned Airbus A380 services to Sydney and Melbourne in favour of boosting superjumbo flights to Europe.

The A380 was set to begin daily Sydney-Kuala Lumpur flights from November 26 this year, with Melbourne tipped to follow from March 1.

Both Australian cities are now off the agenda, with MAS focusing instead on Europe.

A second daily Airbus A380 flight between Kuala Lumpur and London (MH03/04) will commence on November 24, complementing the A380's debut earlier this year on that same route.

MAS will also roll out an A380 on the Kuala Lumpur-Paris route (MH20/21) from March 1 next year.

Malaysia Airlines Chief Executive Officer, Ahmad Jauhari Yahya, said strong response to the first Kuala Lumpur-London A380 service had sparked the decision to implement a second daily flight.

"Encouraged by the success of our current daily A380 operations on this route, we have decided to replace the existing B747 daily flights, with the A380 to make it a double daily on the superjumbo," Yahya said in a statement.

"The introduction of the latest 5-Star product standards on the A380 was also complemented by Skytrax, United Kingdom, renewing our 5-Star Airline status."

The move throws a spanner into the works for Malaysia Airlines' plans for an "A380 all the way" Kangaroo Route between Sydney and London via Kuala Lumpur.

Changes With Singapore Airlines Operations & Fleets

Singapore Airlines will terminate ultra-longhaul nonstop flights to Los Angeles and Newark in late-2013 after Airbus agreed to buy back the carrier's five A340-500s.

The deal forms part of SIA's announcement today that it is ordering five additional A380s and 20 A350-900s. This will bring the numbers of A380 operating by the airline to a total of 24.

The airline says its decision to retire the A340s is in line with its "policy to maintain a young fleet". However industry sources say the nonstop services between Singapore and the USA continued to fall short of revenue expectations, despite the airline switching to an all-business class cabin layout in an effort to boost yields.

SIA says the removal of the A340s means it will no longer have an aircraft type in its fleet with "sufficient range and operating economics" to serve the USA nonstop.

"Although disappointing that we will be halting these services, we remain very committed to the US market," says SIA chief executive Goh Choon Phong. "Over the past two years we have increased capacity to both Los Angeles and New York by deploying A380 superjumbos on flights via Tokyo and Frankfurt. We will also continue to explore additional options to enhance our US services," he adds.

With its additional Airbus orders announced today, SIA will have outstanding firm purchase or lease orders in place with Airbus and Boeing for 68 widebody aircraft, including 15 A330-300s and eight 777-300ERs ordered last year.

SIA is meanwhile transferring its order for 20 787-9s to low-cost subsidiary Scoot. Regional arm SilkAir has commitments for 54 Boeing 737s, including 31 of the re-engined 737 Max. Deliveries will start in 2014, said Scoot, which started operations in June. The fuel-efficient new aircraft will replace Scoot's fleet of Boeing 777-200s, it added. Scoot currently operates no-frills flights from Singapore to Sydney, the Gold Coast, Bangkok, Taipei and Tianjin in China.

Services to Tokyo will start on October 29 followed by flights to the Chinese cities of Shenyang and Qingdao in November.

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

A350XWB Final Assembly Line Inauguration

Airbus will celebrate on 23/October the official inauguration of the A350 XWB Final Assembly Line in the presence of Airbus President & CEO, Fabrice Brégier, as well asthe French Premier ministre Jean-Marc Ayrault, Günter Butschek COO Airbus and Didier Evrard A350 XWB Program Director. Here are some pictures of the first flyable Airbus A350 XWB MSN 001.









Monday, October 22, 2012

The Moment I Knew

You should've been there,
Should've burst through the door,
With that 'baby I'm right here' smile,
And it would've felt like,
A million little shining stars had just aligned,
And I would've been so happy.


Christmas lights glisten,
I've got my eye on the door,
Just waiting for you to walk in,
But the time is ticking,
People ask me how I've been as I comb back through my memory,
How you said you'd be here,
You said you'd be here.


And it was like slow motion, 
Standing there in my party dress,
In red lipstick,
With no-one to impress,
And they're all laughing,
As I'm looking around the room,
But there's one thing missing,
And that was the moment I knew.


And the hours pass by,
Now I just wanna be alone,
But your close friends always seem to know when there's something really wrong,
So they follow me down the hall,
And there in the bathroom,
I try not to fall apart, 
And the sinking feeling starts,
As I say hopelessly,
"He said he'd be here."


And it was like slow motion, 
Standing there in my party dress,
In red lipstick,
With no-one to impress,
And they're all laughing,
And asking me about you,
But there's one thing missing,
And that was the moment I knew.


What do you say when tears are streaming down your face,
In front of everyone you know?
And what do you do when the one who means the most to you,
is the one who didn't show?


You should've been here.
And I would've been so happy.


And it was like slow motion, 
Standing there in my party dress,
In red lipstick,
With no-one to impress,
And they're all standing around me singing,
Happy Birthday to you,
But there's one thing missing,
And that was the moment I knew.


You call me later,
And say I'm sorry I didn't make it.
And I say I'm sorry too,
And that was the moment I knew.

Seriously I haven't come across anyone that makes me feel this way like this song  could relate. But it is just too beautiful not to share. The more I get to loop Red, the more I am falling in love with Taylor. I got my Red Deluxe version on Target. with extra 6 tracks on it. State Of Grace amazed me the most. What an amazing album. That is my verdict. 3 and a half stars out of 4 on my scale! I'm not sure that does Malaysia has the deluxe which is only at Target in the States at the moment. But I would really reckon you guys to get the deluxe! She really show case what she really does best. She really shows that you don't need a big voice to really get a hit. All she needs is the honesty in her music. Definitely a must get in 2012.

Come Back... Be Here

Of all the songs from Red, this is one song that really hits me! I have no idea why! It was just a perfectly normal mid tempo ballad. But I guess that the emotions of it makes it perfect! I am so in love with the arrangements. Alright, not gonna talk about it technically. But Taylor is perfectly gifted! Her lyrics are so powerful with her voice! She may not have the most powerful voice among all other country singers but what she has that others don't is pure honesty and the vibe she puts in every song!

To be honest, I wasn't a big fan of Taylor's but this album won me over. Every single track could possibly be a single! But this song really meant a lot to me. When I first listen to it this morning, I told my bestie that I haven't felt this way for a long time.

It is just like those emotions, you just wanna listen to really emotional songs, and cry to it alone. This song is that song for me! Many may felt that it isn't so. I could say it is as the tune doesn't really sounded that way. This is the magical thing about music! Like Shin Yong always says! Another language only the heart understands. It just made me felt that way! It is in a good way though. Even the heart needed ventilation once a while.

Being back in New York is just giving a new hope for me in many ways. I don't know why, it just did. Got my train tickets back to Boston later in the afternoon. I just wanted to go home and have myself sink into the sofa in front of the fire place. I guess being home is really different that staying somewhere! Anyway, glad I'm back here. Anyway, enjoy the lyrics! I know I did!


You said it in a simple way,
4am, the second day,
How strange that I don't know you at all.
Stumbled through the long goodbye,
One last kiss, then catch your flight,
Right when I was just about to fall

I told myself don't get attached,
but in my mind I play it back,
Spinning faster than the plane that took you...

And this is when the feeling sinks in,
I don't wanna miss you like this,
Come back... be here, come back... be here.
I guess you're in New York today,
I don't wanna need you this way,
Come back... be here, come back... be here.

The delicate beginning rush,
The feeling you can know so much,
Without knowing anything at all.
And now that I can put this down,
If I had known what I'd known now,
I never would have played so nonchalance.

Taxi cabs and busy streets,
That never bring you back to me,
I can't help but wish you took me with you...

And this is when the feeling sinks in,
I don't wanna miss you like this,
Come back... be here, come back... be here.
I guess you're in London today,
I don't wanna need you this way,
Come back... be here, come back... be here.

This is falling in love in the cruelest way,
This is falling for you and you are worlds away.

New York... be here.
But you're in London and I break down,
Cos it's not fair that you're not around.

This is when the feeling sinks in,
I don't wanna miss you like this,
Come back... be here, come back... be here.
I guess you're in New York today,
And I don't wanna need you this way,
Come back... be here, come back... be here.

I don't wanna miss you like this.
Come back... be here

Red - Taylor Swift's Forth Album

The most noteworthy aspect of Taylor Swift's engaging fourth studio album Red, out today, is not that she's ditched her country shadings in favor of pure danceable pop. Rather, it's that she continues to write ever-more convincingly -- and wittily and painfully -- about the messy emotions of a young twenty something nearing the end of her transition from girl to woman.

The diary-spilling, guess-my-exes'-names approach employed so successfully on 2010's Speak Now works even better in this more contemporary-sounding framework and likely will appeal to an even broader base.

Red's 16 tracks (which could easily have been edited to a dozen or so) were recorded with seven sets of producers in several locations, which keeps the sounds fresh and varied. But the standouts are the three glossy tracks from sessions in Stockholm, with Max Martin and Shellback at the helm: monster single We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together; I Knew You Were Trouble,accented with vocal stutters and propulsive programmed keyboards and guitars; and the crisp and breezy 22, in which she sums up her zeitgeist with "Everything will be all right if we just keep dancing like we're 22.''

Swift's Nashville sessions with longtime producer Nathan Chapman resulted in songs that are not quite as flashy and employ acoustic instruments and/or orchestration, but which have more lyrical depth. Breathy ballad All Too Well, written with Liz Rose, bitterly describes a guy who was "casually cruel in the name of being honest,'' while the sprightly and sweetly silly Stay Stay Stay pokes fun at her own brattish behavior: "I'm pretty sure we almost broke up last night. I threw my phone across the room at you ... but you stayed.''

Occasionally, she overreaches: Sad, Beautiful which is one of my top picks, Tragic tries for world-weary profundity but misses, and her whining about the price one pays for being an "it'' girl on The Lucky One simply rings false.

Duets with Ed Sheeran (Everything Has Changed) and Snow Patrol's Gary Lightbody (The Last Time) are innocuous and non-essential.

At this stage in her still-tender life, Swift does sass and naked honesty far better than melodrama, and that keeps us craving the next chapter.

Red, out now! Get it on iTunes and the nearest store around you!

Sunday, October 21, 2012

New York

Wrapping up everything in London and now back in NYC! The greatest city in the world! At least to me it is! When I just landed, all I could think of is
I am home! 

Imma gonna like spend 2 days here and I am gonna head back to Boston! I wanna just sink myself in my own bed! But the sad thing is Imma not gonna be here for long. Will be leaving back to Malaysia and meet my family and we are off again to our vacation! Submitted my visa application! I can't wait for my exotic trip to even get started. 3 Countries! Sri Lanka, India and Nepal! But not gonna talk much about it now.

For now, I am just gonna like indulge myself back here with the things I love to do! CORNDOGS!!! And heading back to Boston to just do nothing but sleep ad meet up old friends! But I only got like 2 weeks to do that before all the hectic work starts again! By the way, video shoot is super awesome! We wrapped up everything in London and it was fun!

Now I realize Imma gonna have a headache! Halloween in coming! I need my costume! I love trick or treating in Boston! Imma also having some close friends around with me over in Boston! How I wish Winter comes early this year! Can't wait for first snow! If that is even possible! Anyhow, just check in to my room. List of things to do. Headache again!

1. Ticket back to Boston!
2. Hospital appointments!
3. Fixing tune for my God Bro JJ and send back to Malaysia to him!
4. Start exercising for god sake! You are FAT ERIC!!!
5. Order fire wood before arriving in Boston! It's getting cold now!
6. Call home!
7. Check tickets back to KL for transit!
8. Call Rainer tomorrow!
9. SLEEP!


By the way, mental note taken! British Airways is a little over rated! It isn't all worth paying for that! It was just alright! Nothing amazing about their business class. For the record, I still prefer Asian airlines! Service, food, and everything is just perfect the moment you step in the plane!

Anyway, time to hunt for corndog! As now the jet lag has not kick in! Better spend my day out than in! Calling my buds and heading for a nice cozy dinner! That would be lovely!

All I really wanna say here is, I LOVE NYC and it's great to be back! Oh, and 2 more weeks till elections! Means, loads of goodies! I wish green card holder could vote! But, I have made up my mind! I know how the future is for me! Even without voting!

Thursday, October 18, 2012

Clown

This song speaks about a self-acceptance of the journey of life. In recognizing the sad nature of things, rather than choosing to give in to defeat there is a choice to make life a lighter meaning. Originally sang by the great Emeli Sandé. Emeli is someone new in the industry. She has a Mary J and Beyonce vibe to her voice. The song I posted on my playlist is a cover by Charice. 

I guess at times that I am going through now, I find a lot of peace in music. I am kinda in a writing block at the moment. Good thing is there isn't a song due now so it is all good. All I am looking forward is heading back to the States for Halloween. I guess I could say I will end my year with a good note this year. Things are unexpectedly kind to me. With the beauty and love given to me, I couldn't possibly complaint about the physical pain that is haunting me now and then. 

The tour will end in days now. I just wanted to go home to where I could get my rest. I can't wait to be back in NYC and looking forward to head back to Malaysia too. But what I really miss are the loved ones of mine. Seeing the time I left, it's almost 5 months now since I last saw all of you. I really wish to share all the pain, joy and love with you guys. 

As of my health, chemo isn't as painful as expected or as before. Maybe it is our own emotions that really makes the difference. Things are turning better and better. I also wanted to thank someone who really helps me a lot through these time. Steven Payton. (even thou every time when you open your mouth and sing, it is just magical.) With all that the support is given, I am really thankful. It isn't easy to go through life alone when everyone you love and care are thousand of miles away from you. But like I say earlier, it has been kind to me. I was never really alone at all. Just feeling thankful and blessed.  Anyhow, I wanted to share this song with you guys. It is really a beautiful song. Maybe hope someone I know will do a cover of this song? Hahah.. Let's hope for it. 


I guess it's funnier from where you're standing
'Cause from over here I miss the joke
Clear the way for my crash landing
I've done it again
Another number for your notes

I'd be smiling if I wasn't so desperate
I'd be patient if I had the time
I could stop and answer all of your questions
As soon as I find out 
How I can move from the back of a lie

I'd be less angry if it was my decision
And the money was just rolling in
If I had more than my ambition
I'll have time for please
I'll have time for thank you
As soon as I win

From a distance my choice is simple
From a distance I can entertain
So you can see me
I put makeup on my face
But there's no way you can feel it
From so far away

I'll be your clown
Behind the glass
Go 'head and laugh
'Cause it's funny
I would too if I saw me
I'll be your clown
On your favorite channel
My life's a circus, circus
Round in circus
I'm selling out tonight

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Helping Understand and Treat HIV Through Community-Based Leadership

Dedicating to the White House Administration for the fight for the people. Thank you Mr President for everything you have done!
The lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender (LGBT) community have helped bring about much of the tremendous progress in understanding and treating HIV, ranging from increasing HIV awareness, to fighting HIV-related discrimination, to volunteering for cutting-edge research. This legacy of community-based leadership is one to note on this 5th Annual National Gay Men’s HIV/Awareness Day.

In 2010, President Obama released the nation’s first comprehensive National HIV/AIDS Strategy, which called for aligning resources where HIV is most concentrated, and implementing evidence-based, high-impact interventions to reduce new HIV infections, improving HIV-related health outcomes, and reducing HIV-related disparities. The Strategy has focused Federal, State, and local efforts on a combination prevention approach for gay men and other populations at high risk, including increasing HIV testing and HIV treatment, because studies demonstrate that increasing diagnosis rates and reducing viral loads will significantly reduce new HIV infections in disproportionately affected communities.

The National HIV/AIDS Strategy also calls for addressing stigma and discrimination as part of a comprehensive response to the HIV epidemic. In keeping with the goals of the Strategy, the Department of Justice has taken steps to enforce civil rights laws that protect the rights of persons living with HIV/AIDS, and has launched a website dedicated to fighting discrimination against people living with HIV/AIDS.

In addition to the Strategy, the Affordable Care Act will ensure more Americans have access to affordable, high-quality health insurance and make it illegal for insurance companies to discriminate against anyone with a pre-existing condition like HIV. These changes will help gay men and other disproportionately affected populations get the coverage they need to receive comprehensive care.

This is a transformative time with regards to addressing HIV among gay men: we have made tremendous progress in aligning resources with the epidemic, increasing access to care, and addressing additional factors that contribute to HIV risk.

To fully realize the potential of these accomplishments, and to continue to fight the HIV epidemic, it will take shared commitment and leadership among Federal, State and local governments, community members, LGBT leadership organizations, and other private and public organizations. Today is a day where we recognize how far we’ve come since the early days of the epidemic while also acknowledging that there is more work to do. Through this collective effort, we will realize the goal of an AIDS-free generation.

Dr. Grant Colfax is Director of the Office of National AIDS Policy

Obama Pride : LGBT Americans for Obama


This is such a strong message. Growing up as an Asian who is now living in America, I always believed we live in the best country, we had freedom of self expression and celebrated differences of culture and thought. It was so disappointing to find out that there are still those who would discriminate based on love and lifestyle. But with Obama we are slowly evolving to that point where marriage can be redefined as a monogamous relationship between two people rather than man and woman and we can really all be equal.

The LGBT civil rights movement has had an incredible journey since the 1969 Stonewall Riots with many historic milestones in the past decade alone. The only way that momentum can continue is if Obama is voted in for a second term. I applaud everyone who's made a stand by taking part in this video - and Jesse, you made me cry!

Saturday, October 13, 2012

Journey Continues

I have been wanting to write something for days but I couldn't. Every time I try to sit up, the pain continues to haunt me. But it is all good today. Thinking why not take this opportunity to vent a little today. The UK leg tour has just started. But what is honestly warm to me is having Cow around. I just don't know why but she just know what to do and what to say. Weird right? 

Anyway, I kinda told her about the accidental make out night with Dumdum few weeks ago. The only face she could give me is a blank one! I think she is as lost of words as I was. But she kinda start blasting me  after her engine starts. My turn to be blank. But later after that, she understood what actually happens. It was kinda the emotions that we all are going through from time to time and the bond we had.

But I gotta share this from what she says, she asked me that have I ever had sex with any of my close friends. Honestly, yes besides the girls. And she was like "you slut!" And I was like "Thank you :P" I don't know about many others, but in my perspective, I would rather have sex with someone I know and trust than just a random person. Somehow, I get it with what some other that  the "Weird out period" that may occur but I always tell them, it was just sex! I enjoyed it and they enjoyed it. So get over it and keep it simple. Even some of it isn't that all great.. LOL... No names..

But what I am confuse with her is that I made out with Dumdum. I didn't had sex with him. Where did that topic even arise. Yet another blank face from her. Anyway, my point is that it is really great to me having someone you love and care with you before the next chemo. 

Anyhow, I have been complaining about the visa applications for a few countries I gotta be next year! Such a bitch! I just told Ian I have this urge of throwing my work and head back to Boston or KL. Sometimes, it isn't that I don't enjoy my work. I am not complaining about the opportunity given to me by learning to deal with GIGs. But there isn't any higher joy than just writing music. I am still trying to cope with the things I am learning. But I hope this isn't gonna be a diversion for me to get to deal with tours! I love tours, but not very much on the arrangements of set list and all the on the road life. 

Winter is coming real soon. I still remember just me and my big 3 during first snow last winter in NYC. It was the greatest moment for all 3 of us. And I just realize something! Dumdum is attached for years now. Cow is dating Brandon now! That leaves me... Imma not gonna think about it at the moment. By the way, Mr D's birthday is coming rel soon. I wish he is here with me now. Things will just be perfect. Anyhow, I can't wait to share more songs these coming few weeks. I seriously think that the 2014 Grammys will be a blood bath. 

On what I am feeling and how I am now, lets just put today as relatively good. Keeping it simple. :-) Best way to start my Saturday!

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Catch My Breath - Kelly Clarkson

Due to some copyrights, I am not posting the song on my playlist. First of all, it isn't an big awe song but more to an anthem kinda feel good music. But lyrics wise is great and the way she convey. I am not gonna talk a lot about this song. Those who knows, you will understand why this song is so personal to us. So, check it out on YouTube. I hope you guys love it.
Kelly's Greatest Hits - Chapter 1 out November 19th. Stay tune for more new tunes.


I don't wanna be left behind
Distance was a friend of mine
Catching breath in a web of lies
I've spent most of my life
Riding waves, playing acrobat
Shadowboxing the other half
Learning how to react
I've spent most of my time

Catching my breath, letting it go, turning my cheek for the sake of this show
Now that you know, this is my life, I won't be told what's supposed to be right

Catch my breath, no one can hold me back, I ain't got time for that
Catch my breath, won't let them get me down, it's all so simple now

Addicted to the love I found
Heavy heart, now a weightless cloud
Making time for the ones that count
I'll spend the rest of my time
Laughing hard with the windows down
Leaving footprints all over town
Keeping faith kinda comes around
I will spent the rest of my life

Catching my breath, letting it go, turning my cheek for the sake of this show
Now that you know, this is my life, I won't be told what's supposed to be right

Catch my breath, no one can hold me back, I ain't got time for that
Catch my breath, won't let them get me down, it's all so simple now

Monday, October 8, 2012

Paris Route Also Goes A380 Effective 1 March 2013

Malaysia Airlines will launch double daily Airbus A380 flights on the London-Kuala Lumpur-London return route effective 24 November 2012, increasing the weekly seat capacity by 16%, from 5971 to 6916 in each direction.

This double daily service will be inaugurated after the national carrier receives another two of the six A380s by the end of this month

Malaysia Airlines’ Group CEO Mr. Ahmad Jauhari Yahya said, “Ever since our A380 operations commenced on the London-Kuala Lumpur-London route from 1 July this year, the customer response has been overwhelming. The introduction of our latest 5-Star product standards on the A380 was also complemented by SKYTRAX, UK renewing our 5-Star Airline status. This momentum of 5-Star quality service delivery across all our customer touch points has been well received and comes at a time of great change as we embark on a series of improvements to repositioning ourselves as a premium carrier.

Encouraged by the success of our current daily A380 operations on this route, we have decided to replace the existing B747 daily flights with the A380 to make it double daily on the superjumbo. This initiative is also part of our efforts to standardise our product offering on this popular route for oneworld customers when we join the alliance by early next year.”

The national carrier of Malaysia will also commence daily A380 operations for Paris-Kuala Lumpur-Paris effective 01 March 2013 next year, to replace the current B777 daily services on this route.

With the deployment of the A380 on two of the popular European routes to Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia Airlines will be able to offer the latest premium products and services to travellers and this customer proposition is also certain to increase tourist arrivals into Malaysia next year, which coincides with Visit Malaysia Year 2013.

Sunday, October 7, 2012

This Too Shall Pass

In the middle of the turbulence surrounding you
These trying times that are so hard to endure
In the middle of what seems to be your darkest hour
Hold fast your heart and be assured

This too shall pass
Like every night that's come before it
He'll never give you more than you can bear
This too shall pass
So in this thought be comforted
It's in His Hands
This too shall pass

The Father knows the tears you cry before they fall
He feels your pain, His heart and yours are one
The Father knows that sorrow's heavy chains are strong
But with His strength, you'll overcome

So set your eyes upon the mountain
And lift your hands up to the sky
And let His arms of love surround you
And take you to the other side

This too shall pass
Like every night that's come before it
He'll never give you more than you can bear
This too shall pass
So in this thought be comforted
It's in His Hands
This too shall pass
Finding some peace in this song. Posted by a friend on Facebook and I really Thank him for sharing this beautiful song. Telling myself that the pain will pass too.

Couldn't Help It

It is just a beautiful autumn day outside but I was just sitting around the window looking at the life around going by. I didn't feel as energetic as before, but I am still trying to put on the positivity which I clearly failed to do so.

As the train wreak express kept going, looking at the happy families spending their beautiful Sunday morning on the streets, lovers spending quality time for coffee. But seeing myself being a prisoner of all the tubes and catheter that bounded me here. I ask myself why do I still wanna do this?
Nobody said it's was easy, Nobody said it was this hard, Oh take me back to the start.
It keeps repeating in my head. I am dying to find something to keep me going on. At the moment, it is just pure darkness. Whenever I see something, it all reflects in a way I wanted thing to happen which will never will. When I saw that Something I Wish Was Real trending on twitter, I just wanted a total cure for cancer. Everything links back to the basic. Living in between reality and a fantasy world.

Reality is it will never be the same like what others are living in. Counting the days that I have been spending here now. I should be out there, having my cuppa coffee and reading something I love. But instead, for years, I have to lie to myself that now I am here for a better tomorrow. Could anyone bare to feel what I am feeling right now?

Every day passes and it always has been this part that eating away my soul. I am not asking for anything more. But just the pain is so much to endure. The darkness is every where. I wish that I could see the light. But it is always this hopeless at times like this.

Was talking to Dan earlier. He wasn't at a good place too at the moment. But one thing he ask that why I see him that no one will? Life isn't all about always having the best. But as someone that love him for who he is, I told him that all I see is him being unhappy in life now and that isn't what I wanna see everyone I love in my life be in that place. And it strikes me. My family.

But it is just a little too much to endure now. I don't wanna be in this state now. But I just couldn't help it either. At least not now.


Saturday, October 6, 2012

Do You Remember.

I know I have been avoiding from writing anything I feel these few days. Has been just on the surface of everything. Somehow I just needed to let it out. It's killing me inside everyday. Imma not getting any better. It isn't that I didn't want to. But everything seems so hard to reach. Some old memories rolled in and I am just out of energy to keep being positive. I really tried really really hard. But I can't. At least for now I know I couldn't.

Imma trying to find ways to keep myself back on the positivity train. Listening to Glee's cover of Coldplay's The Scientist, I was feeling somehow peaceful in many ways. I love Coldplay's version more but Glee's arrangement is way better. I somehow had flash back of some really old memories. Remembered the night that I sat on the bathroom floor while you were asleep. Weeping in the dark and didn't want you to know I was devastated. Knowing it was the last night we have ever spent together. It wasn't that painful anymore. But I still feel a little sting in it.

My emotions is every where now. I don't really know it was the meds or I am just a train wreak at the moment. In many ways, I want the pain to go away. The pain killers aren't helping. And whenever my family visits, I am just so tired to put on that smile. I really wish I could let them know it has been so long and I am really tired for holding on. I know that is not an option at all. But I just need to vent in a way.

Getting ready for the next dosage of chemo, I really am hoping for just a few days without any physical pain. I really miss Mr D really a lot. But he is now having so much on is plate. I saw that he tweeted he is gonna go clubbing last night. But I know he needed to balance himself outta all the stress he is having. Imma lying if I didn't say I am dead worried about him. He is also on meds and I couldn't help stop worrying about anything that might happen. But all is well, turn out well for him I suppose. But seeing him in this state, I just couldn't do anything to put on more on his shoulder.

Talking to Andrew? I don't even know where to start. Sigh. I really wanna say stop to all the slump Imma going through this much! But I am giving in to the physical pain. I really got no idea what else I could do. The only good thing is I finished up 12 songs. Sigh.. It couldn't be easier. But how would I do that? I can't give in just like that. Imma tired, but this isn't gonna be fair to my family. I am somewhat just lost in the mist of my own.

Friday, October 5, 2012

Lotus Christina Aguilera

Christina Aguilera has unveiled her album cover for her November release, Lotus, and the singer is baring a lot of herself on it.

On the cover, she's nude, with her long, blond hair covering certain parts of her upper body, while he bottom half is shaded by a white smoky effect. Her arms are extended as she emerges from a lotus flower. She shared the cover with her fans on Twitter on Friday, just five weeks before the album is set to drop.

The photo certainly works with her artwork for her "Your Body" single, which features the singer naked, and covered only by a sheer, pink cloth. The album is slated for release on November 13, and Aguilera says that she's ready to show another side of herself on it.

"I've already put out a greatest hits record, so I've been in this business for a while, and ... I'm a risk taker, that's just who I am at heart. It's who I can't help but be. It's who I always am in nature, as a person and as an artist," she told MTV News about the release. "And with that comes hurdles and certain areas where people aren't going to get it and understand it artistically; sometimes it will go over their heads and it will not be as commercially successful.

"Personally, I'm someone that's always growing and evolving," she continued, "And at this point of my life, I feel that I've reached a place where I'm completely embracing everything about who I am, and I'm having more of an understanding of myself."

"I'm embracing many different things, but it's all feel-good," she said of the album's material, including tracks that are "super-expressive" and fun, with moments that are "super-vulnerable." She explained that the album may find her exploring a range of styles. "Conceptually I didn't target one particular sound/genre," Aguilera tweeted, explaining that "a Lotus intro" will "set the tone for the whole record. 

According to Billboard, Aguilera dips into many genres-from dance-pop on "Your Body" and "Make the World Move" (which is a duet with fellow Voice coach Cee Lo Green), piano-driven power ballads ("Sing for Me," Sia collaboration "Blank Page") and rock-tinged empowerment anthems ("Army of Me," "Cease Fire"). The album opens with a quick sample of M83's "Midnight City" on the title track, an experimental table-setter where Aguilera resolves to "leave the past behind/Say goodbye to the scared child inside. 

Aguilera commented about the song "Army of Me" and how the song looks like "Fighter", from her 2002 album Stripped in an interview for Billboard: "There's a song called 'Army of Me,' which is sort of a 'Fighter 2.0.' There is a new generation of fans from a younger demographic that might not have been with me all the way but that watch me on the show now. I feel like every generation should be able to enjoy and have their piece of 'Fighter' within. This time, the way it musically came together it just felt right for this time and this generation. There's always going to be a fighter in me getting through some obstacle and some hurdle.Aguilera opted not to work with longtime songwriting partners like Linda Perry in favor of such newer collaborators asAlex Da Kid, Sia and Max Martin, on first single "Your Body. 

"I've worked with big and smaller people, and the more established people can get stuck in their ways and say they're not open to critique," Alex Da Kid says."She definitely had a strong opinion, but she'll go with the best idea in the room. That's really rare for someone that's had so much success. Aguilera also commented about working with Max Martin, elaborating: "Max is legendary in the business. He's known about me but we haven't crossed paths. I think when I came in you heard his name with Backstreet Boys, 'N Sync, Britney Spears -- those records were the kind I wanted to stray apart from. If you look at what I did in the past [after my debut], I always try to do things that will challenge me and challenge the listener, too. Could this have worked 10 years ago? I'm not sure. It's taken us a decade in the same business and watching each other from a distance, so for us to now come together and respect each other's work ethic and how we like to be heard and making a marriage out of it, I think 'Your Body' is the best culmination of that."
 

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